Few days left till 2008! A lot of things happened this year.
1) Moved to a new job; new industry; better environment. No more STRESS! More $$
2) A new addition to the family, my niece Aira
3) Lots of good and bad memories
4) Meeting K
5) Getting pre-engaged
2007 was and still is good. Looking forward to another year! Hopefully it will be as good as 2007..if not better.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I’m off to Penang later; for Hari Raya Haji. Its been awhile since I’ve been back to Penang..to visit relatives, sight-seeing and of course, makan makan. K thinks I’m gaining weight; I think so myself. Trying to lose afew kilos before our engagement day. Keeping my fingers crossed that my dieting works this time.
Other than weight issues, everything seems ok. I still feel a slight mixture of anger and frustration over that other issue with him. A friend told me to keep a lookout for recurring issues while another told me to take things easy. I’m just taking things on a day to day basis. Sometimes, I get along fine…some days I get a bit suspicious. It is healthy to feel that way, I guess after going through that. Most of my friends are not aware of it; coz I don’t want them to get a bad idea of him. I don’t think anyone should judge someone based on ONE MISTAKE. I know I won’t want to be judged based on that rule. Anyhow, I’ve been feeling weird a couple of days. I need to resolve certain stuff with him and with myself.
Oh right, the stalker is back. How wonderful for my life right now…..sigh
Other than weight issues, everything seems ok. I still feel a slight mixture of anger and frustration over that other issue with him. A friend told me to keep a lookout for recurring issues while another told me to take things easy. I’m just taking things on a day to day basis. Sometimes, I get along fine…some days I get a bit suspicious. It is healthy to feel that way, I guess after going through that. Most of my friends are not aware of it; coz I don’t want them to get a bad idea of him. I don’t think anyone should judge someone based on ONE MISTAKE. I know I won’t want to be judged based on that rule. Anyhow, I’ve been feeling weird a couple of days. I need to resolve certain stuff with him and with myself.
Oh right, the stalker is back. How wonderful for my life right now…..sigh
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Back in KL finally. Was in JB for a week; market research. It was tiring; alot of energy gone from the trip. Doing my claims :)
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Numb...swollen eyes...sick to my stomach....unhappy thoughts...that's me right now.
My fairytale almost ended badly today. Everything went crashing down.
Somehow, I feel myself putting up the same wall to protect myself. Mark calls it my method of denying reality..I call it "keeping myself sane" from people who intend to hurt my feelings.
I knew it was bound to happen but I kept thinking it was my own insecurities. I'm not sure whether to be angry, sad or be stronger than before. I now know how ZZ feels; it hurts you so much that you can't think straight but somehow, you want to accept the "wrong doings" and move on with your life. Should I accept? Yes I will but it will take time and alot of trust is out the window.
Don't blame my one night of "nothing" to your months of "many things". I wasn't out for revenge or just wanted to have fun. I did my "nothing" out of my stupidity to think straight. But you; for months, did "many things" consciously and with a purpose.
As I said before, I will stand by you no matter how bad things are. It is time for you to keep your words and promises. No more unanswered calls (unless really have to do), no more "unknown" friends of yours and no more hurting me. I've been through alot and you came in and made me smile again....but it is you that made me cried today. My heart/feelings which you had mended and repaired are back in pieces...all due to your carelessness. It will take lots of time to put the puzzle back but somehow, I'll manage *even on my own*..I've done it before and I can do it again if I need to.
What you hate the most is what you have become. That's the worst I've seen from this episode. I've tried so much to keep myself from doing any wrong but it is you who seems careless now. You want me to be "good" but you don't practice what you preach.
I forgive you but I will never forget your "many things". I will start afresh tomorrow morning; but I will always be reminded of what you are capable of. Don't blame me for doing so since it is you who put the thoughts in my mind.
P/S: This open letter is made by me who doesn't care if anyone gets upset with this. I have a right to write down whatever I want. No apologies are to be made unless it is you apologizing to me for your "errors".
Mark: THANK YOU for being a great friend. You are truly one of a kind..my best friend. I love you to bits for everything. Thanx for keeping me sane tonight
My fairytale almost ended badly today. Everything went crashing down.
Somehow, I feel myself putting up the same wall to protect myself. Mark calls it my method of denying reality..I call it "keeping myself sane" from people who intend to hurt my feelings.
I knew it was bound to happen but I kept thinking it was my own insecurities. I'm not sure whether to be angry, sad or be stronger than before. I now know how ZZ feels; it hurts you so much that you can't think straight but somehow, you want to accept the "wrong doings" and move on with your life. Should I accept? Yes I will but it will take time and alot of trust is out the window.
Don't blame my one night of "nothing" to your months of "many things". I wasn't out for revenge or just wanted to have fun. I did my "nothing" out of my stupidity to think straight. But you; for months, did "many things" consciously and with a purpose.
As I said before, I will stand by you no matter how bad things are. It is time for you to keep your words and promises. No more unanswered calls (unless really have to do), no more "unknown" friends of yours and no more hurting me. I've been through alot and you came in and made me smile again....but it is you that made me cried today. My heart/feelings which you had mended and repaired are back in pieces...all due to your carelessness. It will take lots of time to put the puzzle back but somehow, I'll manage *even on my own*..I've done it before and I can do it again if I need to.
What you hate the most is what you have become. That's the worst I've seen from this episode. I've tried so much to keep myself from doing any wrong but it is you who seems careless now. You want me to be "good" but you don't practice what you preach.
I forgive you but I will never forget your "many things". I will start afresh tomorrow morning; but I will always be reminded of what you are capable of. Don't blame me for doing so since it is you who put the thoughts in my mind.
P/S: This open letter is made by me who doesn't care if anyone gets upset with this. I have a right to write down whatever I want. No apologies are to be made unless it is you apologizing to me for your "errors".
Mark: THANK YOU for being a great friend. You are truly one of a kind..my best friend. I love you to bits for everything. Thanx for keeping me sane tonight
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Managed to get some stuff done over the weekend. Made breakfast for him on Sunday at my house; first time for me to wake up early to cook….not even for me but for someone else. Can I get some applause here, people!
Took an unexpected leave of absence from work yesterday. Got my SIM card changed…I can now video call the special someone. No hiding from me anymore; evil laugh. We managed to watch two movies during the weekend; both movies sucked since both had cliff-hanger endings. K said its my fault for picking bad movies; as if syg!
I also found the kebaya that is destined to be my attire for the engagement day. I know the day is a long time off but it doesn't hurt to look right. Anyway, the kebaya is light blue with beadings; slightly see-through. Syg was very worried about the transparency of the cloth. I fell in love with that kebaya while syg fell in love with another white one. So we came to a compromise that we shall get both. However, the price for each kebaya is around RM600...far over my budgeted price. I don't think I'll get the kebayas as its too pricey..oh well, there will be others.
*POUTS*
[update]
Confirmed not getting it. F*cking annoyed at everything!
Took an unexpected leave of absence from work yesterday. Got my SIM card changed…I can now video call the special someone. No hiding from me anymore; evil laugh. We managed to watch two movies during the weekend; both movies sucked since both had cliff-hanger endings. K said its my fault for picking bad movies; as if syg!
I also found the kebaya that is destined to be my attire for the engagement day. I know the day is a long time off but it doesn't hurt to look right. Anyway, the kebaya is light blue with beadings; slightly see-through. Syg was very worried about the transparency of the cloth. I fell in love with that kebaya while syg fell in love with another white one. So we came to a compromise that we shall get both. However, the price for each kebaya is around RM600...far over my budgeted price. I don't think I'll get the kebayas as its too pricey..oh well, there will be others.
*POUTS*
[update]
Confirmed not getting it. F*cking annoyed at everything!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Recently met up with Evonne and Fiona. K joined in for fun; actually I made him. Over tea/coffee, we updated each other regarding work, life and my up-coming engagement. I managed to freak the girls out because back in uni days, I swore that I’ll probably end up an old grumpy woman since I was confident that no one can make me happy but myself. K proved this wrong.
They were quite worried about the relationship and all. Girls, I’m not getting engaged due to pregnancy! It just feels right; with the right guy. No matter how we fight, we always resolve things quickly. To think that I was so confident about being forever single. Silly me; proves that I sometimes take things too seriously. I’m happy! So, things turned out GREAT for me.
Work has been fairly good. Will be heading down to JB next month. A week or so there for work. Should be interesting. A week without him will be a challenge. Thankfully my new phone can video call!
They were quite worried about the relationship and all. Girls, I’m not getting engaged due to pregnancy! It just feels right; with the right guy. No matter how we fight, we always resolve things quickly. To think that I was so confident about being forever single. Silly me; proves that I sometimes take things too seriously. I’m happy! So, things turned out GREAT for me.
Work has been fairly good. Will be heading down to JB next month. A week or so there for work. Should be interesting. A week without him will be a challenge. Thankfully my new phone can video call!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Been awhile now since I’ve updated the blog. Lots of interesting things happened so far. Quit my job, got a new one. Went for a holiday (treasure hunting). And so much more..I can barely remember what happened last month.
So far, this new job is so much better than my previous one; no deadlines! Colleagues are friendly and helpful *a loud cheer from me* Can’t really reveal much as one does not want to get into trouble with management about one’s blog. Overall, I’m happy with my move here.
As for the treasure hunt/holiday, it was the first get-away trip for me and K. Lots of great moments, a tiny argument over Twisties and lots of wonderful situations as a couple. We went with his colleague, Tina and her boyfriend. The hotel was great; love the beachers *we practically went to most of the beaches in the state*, the prizes were good and the hunt was exciting. See, I can be active when I want to.
4 months or so to our engagement day. Excited.
At work right now. New job requires me to work every alternate Saturdays *for 4 hours* which is ok with me. Pmsing right now; I hate hormonal changes – moody, grumpy, hay-wired Shari.
So far, this new job is so much better than my previous one; no deadlines! Colleagues are friendly and helpful *a loud cheer from me* Can’t really reveal much as one does not want to get into trouble with management about one’s blog. Overall, I’m happy with my move here.
As for the treasure hunt/holiday, it was the first get-away trip for me and K. Lots of great moments, a tiny argument over Twisties and lots of wonderful situations as a couple. We went with his colleague, Tina and her boyfriend. The hotel was great; love the beachers *we practically went to most of the beaches in the state*, the prizes were good and the hunt was exciting. See, I can be active when I want to.
4 months or so to our engagement day. Excited.
At work right now. New job requires me to work every alternate Saturdays *for 4 hours* which is ok with me. Pmsing right now; I hate hormonal changes – moody, grumpy, hay-wired Shari.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Me…him...& a ring!
Finally! I’m taking a VERY big step into adulthood. On the 20th Oct 2007, I’m finally being booked *as our matchmaker had said*
Who is the matchmaker…none other than Mark. The lucky guy is of course; my sayang K!
Basically, his side will come over to my house for majlis merisik. Back in the day, its done coz the future bride and groom don’t get to meet each other; you’ll probably get married to a stranger. So the guy side will come over and ask whether “bunga di rumah sudah dipetik” which means whether the girl is promised to anyone yet. By the way, the phrase “bunga di rumah sudah dipetik” is NOT used in actual event OK!
This means K and his family will come over to my house. To ask whether my family is ok with the relationship and so on. Of course, my family already thinks K is part of the family so “merisik” is done only as a part of tradition/custom. We already bought the ring for merisik.
Last Sunday, we bought the engagement rings as well. So we are set.
Merisik…bertunang (engagement)…..berkahwin (marriage).
Finally! I’m taking a VERY big step into adulthood. On the 20th Oct 2007, I’m finally being booked *as our matchmaker had said*
Who is the matchmaker…none other than Mark. The lucky guy is of course; my sayang K!
Basically, his side will come over to my house for majlis merisik. Back in the day, its done coz the future bride and groom don’t get to meet each other; you’ll probably get married to a stranger. So the guy side will come over and ask whether “bunga di rumah sudah dipetik” which means whether the girl is promised to anyone yet. By the way, the phrase “bunga di rumah sudah dipetik” is NOT used in actual event OK!
This means K and his family will come over to my house. To ask whether my family is ok with the relationship and so on. Of course, my family already thinks K is part of the family so “merisik” is done only as a part of tradition/custom. We already bought the ring for merisik.
Last Sunday, we bought the engagement rings as well. So we are set.
Merisik…bertunang (engagement)…..berkahwin (marriage).
Monday, August 20, 2007
Why the sudden urge to blog? Well, I’m stressed at work…tons of things to do and so little time so where else to vent (besides my sayang who is on holidays) so here I am blogging again.
This month has been really f*c*ed-up. No idea why but my emotional side has gone hay-wired. Being away from him doesn’t help. Even though, we see each other every morning but I noticed we hardly talked like we used to. It always begins with “morning sayang” and ends with “drive carefully, ya”. Hmm, I don’t think we used to be that way. Maybe it’s the curse of “pass-the-6-months-period”. Yup, I’m happy to say that we’ve been together for 7 months now. Still arguing over the little things and still happy over the smallest things. I know that being with someone doesn’t mean you need to be happy 24/7 but one can try right! Oh well, give and take, find a middle way and so on….I still love you, K
No matter what you do *or no matter what nonsense I do*
The pressures of work have been getting to me lately; even thought of looking for a new one but I’m still having fun so why switch right?!? On the health side, I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. Docs said it’s not due to fever but “take this med just in case”…hmmm, I hate going for check-ups.
Oh yeah, K and I adopted 2 cats. Oh-so-cute!!! I think he gave me the cats as a way to distract me while he’s off doing something/busy/not answering calls or sms. He’s the only one who finally got it right as in what to get me.
Another happy moment currently in my life is the company trip. I’m off to Bali in late Oct!! Party, shopping, the guys *kidding!* and the freedom! Can’t wait to have fun with Zura and Yanti. Finally, a chance to have fun.
Life for me currently is “Lalala” as K would say.
This month has been really f*c*ed-up. No idea why but my emotional side has gone hay-wired. Being away from him doesn’t help. Even though, we see each other every morning but I noticed we hardly talked like we used to. It always begins with “morning sayang” and ends with “drive carefully, ya”. Hmm, I don’t think we used to be that way. Maybe it’s the curse of “pass-the-6-months-period”. Yup, I’m happy to say that we’ve been together for 7 months now. Still arguing over the little things and still happy over the smallest things. I know that being with someone doesn’t mean you need to be happy 24/7 but one can try right! Oh well, give and take, find a middle way and so on….I still love you, K
No matter what you do *or no matter what nonsense I do*
The pressures of work have been getting to me lately; even thought of looking for a new one but I’m still having fun so why switch right?!? On the health side, I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now. Docs said it’s not due to fever but “take this med just in case”…hmmm, I hate going for check-ups.
Oh yeah, K and I adopted 2 cats. Oh-so-cute!!! I think he gave me the cats as a way to distract me while he’s off doing something/busy/not answering calls or sms. He’s the only one who finally got it right as in what to get me.
Another happy moment currently in my life is the company trip. I’m off to Bali in late Oct!! Party, shopping, the guys *kidding!* and the freedom! Can’t wait to have fun with Zura and Yanti. Finally, a chance to have fun.
Life for me currently is “Lalala” as K would say.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
The Fabulous Catz - Rimas
Lari, lari, lari
Aku lari tingalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari, cari...........Ketenangan diri
Pergi, pergi, pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini
Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu
Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini
(Korus)
Mengapa
Aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas, rimas aku rimas
Tidak pesona kecundang
Istana jiwa ku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawan ku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang-siang
Bukannya alang-kepalang
datangnya perang
Dan bawa ku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garang ku Terbang melayang
Terbongkang ku terbangkau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkangkang kira ku tak diundang ku rapuh
Semua tak bertiang janji ku kini kan berulang
Lari lari aku Lari tinggalkan
Tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi, kini ku pergi
Tinggalkanmu
*Somehow this song speaks volumes of how I feel right now.
Lari, lari, lari
Aku lari tingalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari, cari...........Ketenangan diri
Pergi, pergi, pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini
Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu
Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini
(Korus)
Mengapa
Aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas, rimas aku rimas
Tidak pesona kecundang
Istana jiwa ku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawan ku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang-siang
Bukannya alang-kepalang
datangnya perang
Dan bawa ku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garang ku Terbang melayang
Terbongkang ku terbangkau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkangkang kira ku tak diundang ku rapuh
Semua tak bertiang janji ku kini kan berulang
Lari lari aku Lari tinggalkan
Tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi, kini ku pergi
Tinggalkanmu
*Somehow this song speaks volumes of how I feel right now.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I need a day without thinking of whether my client has given me the materials for the next issue, a day without rushing to some place, a day without thinking anything remotely hard....
I need..........
I know what I need.
Feeling emo right now. I'm not blaming it on my period; I blame the situation that I am in. Need to think clearly.
[edit]
All is fine now!
[/edit]
I need..........
I know what I need.
Feeling emo right now. I'm not blaming it on my period; I blame the situation that I am in. Need to think clearly.
[edit]
All is fine now!
[/edit]
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Currently in the office; trying my best to act busy. Its not coz I have no work, its coz I have too much that I'm avoiding to do work unless its a matter of life or death. In my case, more to the matter of screwing up the pages for the next issue of the mag.
Life's been good. I finally have a niece to spoil. Yup, Elly gave birth last week to a beautiful baby girl. Niece's name is Aira...cute huh? Will upload her photo when I have time....
I must be pmsing right now since my back is aching *its gotten so bad that I can't sit straight* and my usual monthly water works are here. Yes, its been awhile since I had my water works but the point of having a sayang *among others, of course* is to have a shoulder to cry on. So applause to him for keeping up with my mood swings and recently my irrational bouts of being-totally-jealous. Of course, I have my own personal reasons for being jealous. I know that he's faithful and all but I have the right to be crazy-jealous *sometimes* especially when another girl is trying to be all cute and mushy with my guy. In the words of my sayang, "Jangan bermain-main dengan api"....translation: Dont play around with fire!
Life's been good. I finally have a niece to spoil. Yup, Elly gave birth last week to a beautiful baby girl. Niece's name is Aira...cute huh? Will upload her photo when I have time....
I must be pmsing right now since my back is aching *its gotten so bad that I can't sit straight* and my usual monthly water works are here. Yes, its been awhile since I had my water works but the point of having a sayang *among others, of course* is to have a shoulder to cry on. So applause to him for keeping up with my mood swings and recently my irrational bouts of being-totally-jealous. Of course, I have my own personal reasons for being jealous. I know that he's faithful and all but I have the right to be crazy-jealous *sometimes* especially when another girl is trying to be all cute and mushy with my guy. In the words of my sayang, "Jangan bermain-main dengan api"....translation: Dont play around with fire!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I'll try to summarize my week through the photos taken on my SE phone. Scroll over the pics for extra comments from yourself truly (me lah)
Started from last week.
Friday
Stuck in massive traffic jam due to rain and school holidays. Everyone had to just balik kampung on that day, it seems.
Work work work...end of the day, FUN!
Went to work...sick but happy!
Started from last week.
Friday
Stuck in massive traffic jam due to rain and school holidays. Everyone had to just balik kampung on that day, it seems.
Saturday
Had a very busy day. Niece's birthday party, work, and of course hanging out with my K.
Woke up. Hang out with K as usual. Went to [see pics below].
Went to Cyberjaya before that. Forgot to take pics there.
Work work work...end of the day, FUN!
Tamarind Springs - - Dinner with K
Ordered crabs, the curry, chicken and of course, rice.
As usual, we did something silly. Lost our umbrella when heavy winds hit during the storm. Don't even asked where the umbrella landed on. Probably landed on someone or something. Silly "S n K"
After dinner, we walked in the rain. Thank god, the place providing the umbrella.
His birthday gift. Hope u like it, sayang!
Went to work...sick but happy!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Hmm, I'm tired. Just plain tired. No idea why; my body is in need of rest. I feel like rebooting myself. It's not because of work or anything. I just feel this way. Lack of sleep..I want just want to be in bed and sleep.
Lots of things happened since the last blog entry. The Sunway Lagoon day, went to the zoo twice without actually going in (we only made it to the gates...twice happened), having our first major argument, his brother's accident.....Aqif being his cheeky self. He managed to catch me off guard yesterday..he asked me something that was rather private. And he asked me in front of my family. It made me blushed as it is about K and me..the future plans. Hmm, cheeky little nephew!
Opps, gotta go. Lots of work to do. Plus boss is here.
Lots of things happened since the last blog entry. The Sunway Lagoon day, went to the zoo twice without actually going in (we only made it to the gates...twice happened), having our first major argument, his brother's accident.....Aqif being his cheeky self. He managed to catch me off guard yesterday..he asked me something that was rather private. And he asked me in front of my family. It made me blushed as it is about K and me..the future plans. Hmm, cheeky little nephew!
Opps, gotta go. Lots of work to do. Plus boss is here.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Even though, I spent my weekend with you...I still miss you!
Ok, back to my normal blogging. Life's been good; more highs than lows...
I spent most of my time with K during the weekend. Saturday, went to this car show at Bukit Jalil. Yes, I'm determined to learn and experience new things with him. I can imagine someone laughing hard right now.
I want my car to be like the above...just kidding. I managed to get a tan from spending far-too-long-a-time at the car show.
Noticed the tired look?!? Went home tired after a long day. But it was a good way to spend my Saturday. I was determined not to see him on Sunday. Somehow we decided to hang out anyway. Went shopping....the usual couple-ish stuff. Moral of this entry is never say "i don't want to see you" coz I'm bound to see you anyway...no matter what. *Winks*
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I need $$$
That's how broke I am right now. For the first time, my bank account is something not to be proud of. I usually keep at least RM1000 aside in the bank..just in case. The amount now is not ever anywhere closed to that amount.
I'm just waiting for my salary and my cheque. The reason for being broke this month is due to my work expenses for last month ate up half of my salary. Thank god, I can claim it back. But only getting the repayment after the 15th of each month.
Need to save up...need to pay debts..need money...
That's how broke I am right now. For the first time, my bank account is something not to be proud of. I usually keep at least RM1000 aside in the bank..just in case. The amount now is not ever anywhere closed to that amount.
I'm just waiting for my salary and my cheque. The reason for being broke this month is due to my work expenses for last month ate up half of my salary. Thank god, I can claim it back. But only getting the repayment after the 15th of each month.
Need to save up...need to pay debts..need money...
Friday, April 20, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Overslept today. Late for work...as usual.
The reason for blogging right now is to get something off my chest. The same thing that has happened in the past reappeared itself again today. And I feel really bad, sad and miserable. Friends and people who are special to me SHOULD know that I would never think or make decisions based on only one person's side. I'm usually a listener rather than a talker when it comes to problematic situations. So when someone who I loved the most says that I pick sides, it makes me rethink on certain issues like how well we clicked together, or how well we know each other. It instills doubt in my mind...
I don't think I do...well, I stopped picking sides a long time ago. For me, I rather look at the bigger picture rather than harp on a certain thing. I usually listen to all sides, keep my mouth shut, and only open my mouth when I really have something important to say or when I really need to be involve. But usually, I don't want to be involve..I know certain matters in someone's life is their business; private. Of course, I want to know about that stuff but to be directly involved in the situation is not my right. I just want to be there; to listen, talk, console and give a helping hand/kiss/hug when it truly counts.
The reason for blogging right now is to get something off my chest. The same thing that has happened in the past reappeared itself again today. And I feel really bad, sad and miserable. Friends and people who are special to me SHOULD know that I would never think or make decisions based on only one person's side. I'm usually a listener rather than a talker when it comes to problematic situations. So when someone who I loved the most says that I pick sides, it makes me rethink on certain issues like how well we clicked together, or how well we know each other. It instills doubt in my mind...
I don't think I do...well, I stopped picking sides a long time ago. For me, I rather look at the bigger picture rather than harp on a certain thing. I usually listen to all sides, keep my mouth shut, and only open my mouth when I really have something important to say or when I really need to be involve. But usually, I don't want to be involve..I know certain matters in someone's life is their business; private. Of course, I want to know about that stuff but to be directly involved in the situation is not my right. I just want to be there; to listen, talk, console and give a helping hand/kiss/hug when it truly counts.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Blogging from work. Where else could I blog right?!? Work has been ok; not many events for the month of April. But I've learnt that my job requires me to be 24/7 ever-ready to work..no matter what. It sucks but I'm fine. I'm just happy that I get to claim for almost everything during working hours.
My sis hasn't been feeling well nowadays. I'm really worried about her. I'm also worried about mum coz she's worried about sis and me. I haven't been spending time at home lately due to work and hanging out alot. Will try to make it up to her this weekend. Other family members are ok; just Aqif dislikes my bro [due to some silliness on my bro's part]. Other than that....they are all doing fine.
What else to blog about..hmmm....
Oh yeah, went to Kanye West concert at Stadium Merdeka. It was a blast!! Thanks to Mark..who graciously paid for my tix. There were pretty good seats. We went with some of his friends. K didn't go for the concert but we spent enough time waiting around so it was all good. After the concert, K picked me and Mark up for dinner [it should have been supper] at Planet Hollywood..been ages since I've been there. Food was good. Company was great..my best friend and my boyfriend. Dropped Mark off at his house.
The next day, I took MC due to lack of sleep. The rest of the week is quite a blur.
On the personal side, I'm very very very happy. Thanks to him.
My sis hasn't been feeling well nowadays. I'm really worried about her. I'm also worried about mum coz she's worried about sis and me. I haven't been spending time at home lately due to work and hanging out alot. Will try to make it up to her this weekend. Other family members are ok; just Aqif dislikes my bro [due to some silliness on my bro's part]. Other than that....they are all doing fine.
What else to blog about..hmmm....
Oh yeah, went to Kanye West concert at Stadium Merdeka. It was a blast!! Thanks to Mark..who graciously paid for my tix. There were pretty good seats. We went with some of his friends. K didn't go for the concert but we spent enough time waiting around so it was all good. After the concert, K picked me and Mark up for dinner [it should have been supper] at Planet Hollywood..been ages since I've been there. Food was good. Company was great..my best friend and my boyfriend. Dropped Mark off at his house.
The next day, I took MC due to lack of sleep. The rest of the week is quite a blur.
On the personal side, I'm very very very happy. Thanks to him.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Workload has been the main reason for avoiding and neglecting this blog. Sometimes, I wish I could just blog and blog and blog about work but internet is huge and the chances of someone from work finding this blog is oh-so-easy. I can't complain though; I'm learning so much new things and experiencing life to its fullest because my work revolves around events and the people around it. So cheers to my WORK!
Mark's birthday is coming soon. Can't wait for it; K planned something *winks at Mark*
Oh yeah, K is my special someone. Finally, I've found someone. So far, its doing great. No more details about it..I rather have the memories in my mind than having it written out in the blog. All I can see and say is he makes me so happy coz I don't have to pretend to be someone else. I'm just being myself; weird and all when I'm with him.
Life's good, people!!!
Mark's birthday is coming soon. Can't wait for it; K planned something *winks at Mark*
Oh yeah, K is my special someone. Finally, I've found someone. So far, its doing great. No more details about it..I rather have the memories in my mind than having it written out in the blog. All I can see and say is he makes me so happy coz I don't have to pretend to be someone else. I'm just being myself; weird and all when I'm with him.
Life's good, people!!!
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Finally, I have the desire to blog. The reason for not blogging (this time around) is due to work, my Bandung trip and also, I have no desire to blog anymore. Why?
Well, my "real" life is far more interesting so blogging seems like a waste of precious time. Apart from that, Shari is just plain-ol'-lazy..."what's new right" (I can just imagine someone saying that).
Work has been good to me; will start to get busy with events and so on starting this weekend. Lots of late nights, lack of sleep and thankfully, lots of money. But it's not about getting paid to work; for me..it's more about gaining experiences and meeting new people. Contrary to what my friends or the others think, I do very much hate meeting new people. Maybe I have trust issues, or I want to stay in my shell or maybe I'm just happy with who (friends) I have. Whatever the reason is, my work pushes me to talk more and to enjoy life more. So, that is something I'm grateful for.
My trip was good except I got sick most of the time. I managed to get all the things I wanted; a new phone, 3 new bags (yes, I'm a sucker for bags), clothes and alot of new experiences. I enjoyed myself very much..no thinking of work, or whatever. Would certainly go for another trip soon; or as soon as I have the money to go on one. After my money was gone (due to excessive spending), I used the CARD...but only twice so it's ok *winks*
The bad part in my life now is last Friday morning (around 3am), I blacked out. Woke up on the floor of my loo; with bruises on my head and knee. So, I need to go for a check-up. Doc said it could be my eyes....kind of freaked out over the incident but trying to think positive.
So, that's pretty much all that I can share..the rest is too-work-related and too personal to share.
Well, my "real" life is far more interesting so blogging seems like a waste of precious time. Apart from that, Shari is just plain-ol'-lazy..."what's new right" (I can just imagine someone saying that).
Work has been good to me; will start to get busy with events and so on starting this weekend. Lots of late nights, lack of sleep and thankfully, lots of money. But it's not about getting paid to work; for me..it's more about gaining experiences and meeting new people. Contrary to what my friends or the others think, I do very much hate meeting new people. Maybe I have trust issues, or I want to stay in my shell or maybe I'm just happy with who (friends) I have. Whatever the reason is, my work pushes me to talk more and to enjoy life more. So, that is something I'm grateful for.
My trip was good except I got sick most of the time. I managed to get all the things I wanted; a new phone, 3 new bags (yes, I'm a sucker for bags), clothes and alot of new experiences. I enjoyed myself very much..no thinking of work, or whatever. Would certainly go for another trip soon; or as soon as I have the money to go on one. After my money was gone (due to excessive spending), I used the CARD...but only twice so it's ok *winks*
The bad part in my life now is last Friday morning (around 3am), I blacked out. Woke up on the floor of my loo; with bruises on my head and knee. So, I need to go for a check-up. Doc said it could be my eyes....kind of freaked out over the incident but trying to think positive.
So, that's pretty much all that I can share..the rest is too-work-related and too personal to share.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
We were talking about certain people and stuff in the office. Suddenly the topic of blogs popped out. It seems that someone in the fashion department has been blogging “far-too-much” info or bimbo-ness about herself. Feeling intrigued, I visited her blog and to my judgment, it is full of the bimbo-ness factor. Weird, in real life, she is that bad and even in cyberspace, it shows. Enough said. Never write in detail about your work…especially if you work in an environment where everything is on a 3-months-ahead-pace.
Right now, I’m not really that busy. Somehow, it bores me. I think I’m used to being too busy and being too free is actually boring. Dealing with clients or the public is pretty annoying at times but it pushes me out of my comfort zone since I’m pretty closed off when it comes to approaching strangers. Looking forward for next week; going for a movie premiere. Seems that everyone is going. The movie should be entertaining from the looks of its trailer; and I can be blissfully happy since Jude Law is in the flick. Yes, I do find him cute…Em says it’s because he had a bad reputation when it comes to women. I don’t think so….well….secretly I do think so. *sigh*
Right now, I’m not really that busy. Somehow, it bores me. I think I’m used to being too busy and being too free is actually boring. Dealing with clients or the public is pretty annoying at times but it pushes me out of my comfort zone since I’m pretty closed off when it comes to approaching strangers. Looking forward for next week; going for a movie premiere. Seems that everyone is going. The movie should be entertaining from the looks of its trailer; and I can be blissfully happy since Jude Law is in the flick. Yes, I do find him cute…Em says it’s because he had a bad reputation when it comes to women. I don’t think so….well….secretly I do think so. *sigh*
Friday, January 19, 2007
At work right now; for no reason..I woke up early today. Drove way-too-slow on the way to work. Stopped by Section 14's McDs. Sudden craving for hash browns. Been trying to email these two clients since yesterday but the emails has been bouncing back everytime I tried to emailed them...annoys the crap out of me. Deadlines is an annoyance.
Em called earlier to talk; I could hear Lee over the background. Amazingly, they are still together...which is a good thing since friends are happy; me happy too. Someone in the office is getting promoted..I'm really glad for her coz she's been having financial woes lately and getting promoted is the best thing that has happens to her since like..forever. As for me, nothing has changed. Same old Shari...no longer sick though. Looking forward for the weekend...need tons of sleeping time and much-needed TLC from the family.
Oh yeah, Shah is getting married finally. He called to let me know..I told him that I'll be at his wedding (in June 07)..even if he didn't invite me, I know his parents would anyway. Almost everyone I know (and older than me, of course) are getting hitched this year; I'll probably need to find someone to accompany me to the weddings...any volunteers??
Last but not least, Tim will be graduating soon. We chat sometimes over MSN but somehow, we weren't as close as before. Maybe the distance or both of us leading different kinds of lifestyles nowadays but I still loved him as a friend and a brother..no matter what, he'll always that special guy who helped me during my worst moments. I guess everyone has changed since the last time I've met...change is good even if its the bad kind. It makes me think on what I'll became in the next few years..hopefully some good changes and if there's any bad ones, I know there will be people cheering me on.
Em called earlier to talk; I could hear Lee over the background. Amazingly, they are still together...which is a good thing since friends are happy; me happy too. Someone in the office is getting promoted..I'm really glad for her coz she's been having financial woes lately and getting promoted is the best thing that has happens to her since like..forever. As for me, nothing has changed. Same old Shari...no longer sick though. Looking forward for the weekend...need tons of sleeping time and much-needed TLC from the family.
Oh yeah, Shah is getting married finally. He called to let me know..I told him that I'll be at his wedding (in June 07)..even if he didn't invite me, I know his parents would anyway. Almost everyone I know (and older than me, of course) are getting hitched this year; I'll probably need to find someone to accompany me to the weddings...any volunteers??
Last but not least, Tim will be graduating soon. We chat sometimes over MSN but somehow, we weren't as close as before. Maybe the distance or both of us leading different kinds of lifestyles nowadays but I still loved him as a friend and a brother..no matter what, he'll always that special guy who helped me during my worst moments. I guess everyone has changed since the last time I've met...change is good even if its the bad kind. It makes me think on what I'll became in the next few years..hopefully some good changes and if there's any bad ones, I know there will be people cheering me on.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Decided to change the layout of the blog; since it's a new year and change is a very good thing.
Yesterday; I had to work. It was a makeover party event sponsored by Clinique at The Loft. Everything was good except I had to be there from 10.30am to 6.30pm...I was quite chirpy even though; working on Saturdays is a major no-no for me.
As for my health, I'm getting back. No more tummy aches or flu/fever. The only problem now is I need a visit to the dentist. Luckily my company has dental plan...hehe; the wonders of CLAIMS!
As for friends, I had lunch with Evonne, her bf (Simon) and Fiona the other day at The Curve. It was a good day even though I had food poisoning the next day. Everyone is doing well; happy to see that. I wish nothing more for each of my friends except good health and happiness all year round. Sigh, I sound like a greeting card...must be my hormones taking charge!
As for myself, I'm looking forward for certain things like the holiday in Feb, my new nephew/niece being born in June/July and many more.
Yesterday; I had to work. It was a makeover party event sponsored by Clinique at The Loft. Everything was good except I had to be there from 10.30am to 6.30pm...I was quite chirpy even though; working on Saturdays is a major no-no for me.
As for my health, I'm getting back. No more tummy aches or flu/fever. The only problem now is I need a visit to the dentist. Luckily my company has dental plan...hehe; the wonders of CLAIMS!
As for friends, I had lunch with Evonne, her bf (Simon) and Fiona the other day at The Curve. It was a good day even though I had food poisoning the next day. Everyone is doing well; happy to see that. I wish nothing more for each of my friends except good health and happiness all year round. Sigh, I sound like a greeting card...must be my hormones taking charge!
As for myself, I'm looking forward for certain things like the holiday in Feb, my new nephew/niece being born in June/July and many more.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
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