LDR

LDR...

Am I in one? I would call it that. Hmm, I'm glad I chosen this road.

Long distance relationship...pure bliss for me now.

Amin..doakan yang terbaik

Work...Home...Work..Friend...

That's my life now. Work work work...

I'm tired. I want to go on holiday. I want the problems to disappear.

I want the prince to be here instead of there...

U've been blocked

Finally I got the chance to block him...

Ahh...the silence...

Photos update :)

Cik Nisa, my niece on my bed. I babysit during the evenings. Well, I try to babysit...

My new hairdo. Like or Dislike?

Ayat-ayat suci...

Hmm, I need to calm down after the previous blog. Lucky I was listening to the "beautiful words". Syukur :)

Annoyed

I was happy during lunch. The guys said they never knew how annoying I can be. Yes I can be very very annoying. In a good way. We came back to office. I switched on my PC, saw that someone left me an IM.

It was the great MR KAY.

The very presence of his existence annoys me.

"Kau tidak puas annoy aku ke"

Even though, it was just to pass me a website URL. But I'm at the point of no return. I hate you and everything to do with you.

Leave me alone.

And stop saying I was the bitch. I can very much say what you did to me and my family. The debts might go away someday. But the dosa will never be gone.

Broken Friendship

Why does someone ruin a friendship by hitting on a friend?
For a one night situation. It wasn't worth it.

I was the "friend" being hit on. The situation happened awhile back. I finally thought I should talk about it since it's been playing in my mind for awhile now. It hurts me to have to let go of a friend. He went beyond the usual flirting ways; no one even made a play like that on me before. Hmm....it makes me sad.

I actually shed a tear earlier...

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Weight issues...NOT

Oh god, when is lunch!! I’m so freaking hungry.

My weekends is now limited to raya activities for now. I’m losing weight instead of gaining. I have heard afew comments about my weight; they want me to put on. Why? Well, I’m now thinner than my usual self.

I usually skip breakfast, have lunch (rice or bread), dinner (rice). That’s about it. I do eat a lot; just the stress keeps it off. Damn you stress!!

Kelly Clarkson (Already Gone)

Been putting this song on the loop:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone