I finally got a job interview; not very confident about it but I'll just try my luck. It would be cool to work overseas. Wish me luck, people!

2005 has been amazing. I'm finally thinking like an adult; no more sudden drama. I've made a number of new friends; who actually keeps in touch with me. I didn't get into any bad relationships or invoke any weirdness from anyone. I've learnt to let some issues go and I now know better that better things will be coming my way; sooner or later. I'm finally graduating; no more classes or heavy textbooks. I'm having a better relationship with the folks; no more misunderstanding from both sides. I rekindled old friendships; which I'm very grateful for. Overall, 2005 was a very very good year for me. Hopefully, the years ahead would be better.

Goals for 2006

1. Get myself employed
2. Help more around the house
3. Maintain the friendships
4. Never feel lonely; even when I'm alone
   

As I was enjoying my breakfast with the folks, Em and Lee..a statement from daddy dearest nearly choked me.

Dad: Girl, when are you going to apply for jobs!!??!!
Me: I am....[actually not really].

Sigh, feeling the pressures of adulthood!

Merry X'Mas everyone :)

My wishlist

1. DKNY: Be Delicious Perfume
2. A pair of jeans
3. A belt
4. A job
5. That special someone
   

Finally free to do whatever I want. I'm currently so bloody happy right now; nothing can upset me. Em is due back in KL any moment now; she'll taking a cab to Lee's house. Lee is due back tomorrow; no idea why they just can't take the same flight together. Must be another disagreement between them; well...they always fight and quarrel but only for a short while.

Might be heading to Penang again this weekend. The real estate agent wants the folks to sign some documents and stuff. I wouldn't mind going but kind of looking forward to meet up with friends. Sis announced that she and hubby will be going for a trip next year [company-sponsored] to China; not sure which part though.

The roof is finally done! I can finally sleep peacefully in the mornings.

I can't wait to graduate so that I don't have to read books just to get a degree! Surprisingly, I find Marketing quite boring; I rather read about Japan's economy, and so on.

I barely can hear myself think [actually, I barely hear the sounds from the TV] coz the contractors are here to get a roof over the car porch. No idea how bloody expensive it is to do so. But I guess it's worth the money since if it rains, the porch won't get wet and Aqif can play without getting a sunburn. The construction will go on till Friday. By that time, I'll probably be in Penang. Accompanying the folks and Aqif to mum's hometown to settle some land issues and to pick up granny who plans to stay in KL for awhile. I'm just happy that the other contractors [the ones who will be renovating the living room and the kitchen] will only be here after exams are over. Yeah, my dad is going through a phase when he just wants to change everything about the house; even though the house is just two-years-old and we had it renovated before we moved in.

I kind of miss attending classes; since that's the only time I get to see the girls...yeah, the noise from the construction is making me go insane!

Things is getting so much better! Dad finally bought my birthday gift! Like 4 months after my birthday. I totally love what he got me; not one gift but two...hehehe. Shari so giddy now.

Haven't started studying yet since been out for the whole day now. At Nicki's place now; showing off my new bling bling while offering my help on her assignment about Internet security. Sigh, it's a toughie but at least, I'm able to surf the net. Bloody tired; this weekend will be a blast since cousins are coming over for lunch. Still haven't met up with other friends but I guess they're busy too.

Last day of classes today; I can't believe it. No more waking up early for lectures [I can't wait to wake up early to get to work *pouts*]. Had IM class today; he gave some tips for exams and the case study notes. IM; stands for International Marketing. The case study is about Harry Potter and its marketing activities; branding and so forth. Should be interesting since the rage nowadays is to watch the latest HP movie.

After class, we [me, Evonne and Fiona] headed to photocopying shop to get the extra notes. As usual, the place was packed with students so we decided to just order the notes and collect it later after lunch. I promised mum that I'll be back for lunch but I couldn't resist eating with the girls. We headed back to main block; ate at the usual mamak spot. Talked abit; waiting for time to pass so that we could get the notes. Around 1.30, I drove the girls back to Wisma Help to get the notes. Tough luck, the lady went out for lunch so I had to parked my car at W.Help to wait for the lady to be back. We headed to DSA; just to hang out and wait. Saw Beng there; playing snooker. Evonne said he looked so happy; I said good that he's playing with the guys :)

Around 2.30, the lady finally was there. Left the girls at Bangsar LRT Station. Went home. Told mum that I'll eat in the evening; even though I know I barely can eat anything else! Was pretty moody; coz of PMS. Then, someone called me. He was pretty nervous [as usual] but cute in a way. Yes, I'm being mushy right now. He called to check on me and all; then he forgot to tell me the real reason he called in the first place! We hang up after 3 minutes on the phone; I was still curious why he called. At that time, I didn't know what he did to surprise me.

Had dinner with the folks. Surfing online to check out stuff on Harry Potter. Then, while checking my mail, I noticed that he sent me an e-mail. It goes:

"....sorry for not calling you for some time now...the last exam was a killer.so i was to avoid *distractions* if i wanna make the grades. I hope you'll forgive me............"

He wrote more but hmmm, some things are better left unknown! Weird, I was angry at him coz no news from him; for almost a month now. But he has his reasons for not calling. Well, we just have to wait and see how things goes *fingers crossed*

Finally no more assignments to do. Exams are coming soon..in two weeks time.

Tomorrow is Fiona's birthday. Planning to take her out for lunch; since I'm really bad at picking out gifts for people. Speaking of gifts, I'm also planning to get gifts for friends whom had helped me out with my final year project. Friends, you know who you are. I'm not that rich to buy expensive stuffs but it's the meaning behind the gifts that counts :)

I've noticed that some of my girlfriends are depressed lately. No idea how to cheer them up. I guess this Friday's outing should cheer them up. No boys allowed; which is good since it's been awhile since we all hang out with one another. I still need to meet up with Kavin and Mark. Both of whom I haven't seen in ages!! Miss both of you guys!

Tim is planning to come back to KL for New Year's while Em is coming back in a few days. Can't wait for both of them to be back; smiles. Aqif is right now annoying me with his cheeky face. I better go before he destroys my books.

Stress equals to me eating.
Eating equals to me gaining weight
Gaining weight equals to me buying new clothes
New clothes equals to me being broke

Enough said.

Feeling exhausted after whole night of typing the marketing assignment. I can't complain though, coz its a group assignment so I'm only doing 2 parts of the assignment. My luck is bad coz I had to do the financial part of it...those who know me well enough would laugh at the sight of me calculating budgets and all. YES, I have a deep hatred for numbers!

Anyway, my right eye is getting better. No idea why its swollen though. Fi and Von thinks I'm peeping someone. "Peeping Shari" All I have to do now is write me thesis, meet up with friends and improve my financial status. I'm so broke...so I find it hard to go out since I have no $$ to spend. Speaking of going out, I have to get ready now. Going to Aunt's house [in Kajang], having lunch at her place. Can't wait to meet up with cousins...plus their kids. Can't believe I have so many nieces and nephews now. Feeling old.

Friday's Royal Gala [college prom] was amazing. Its been awhile since I got dolled up. I would love to attend another event like that, but too bad..nothing interesting is coming up anytime soon. Around 2, Fiona and I got our hair done. Went back to her place to shower, get dressed, and put on makeup. Got a cab and left to head over to the hotel.

Me and Fiona were the earliest "couple" to arrived..KL traffic is so unpredictable! I thought it would be really bad but alas, it was bearable. Waited for friends to come. Determined to mingle around...trying my best not to be anti-social that night. It worked :)

Welcome to the 2005 Royal Gala

View from my table

Food was good but hardly ate. My dress size limited my eating habits. Me, Fiona and Evonne shared a table with our classmates. The guys were really polite that night. It was the girls that made noise. We got crazy with our cameras..I took pictures with almost everyone in my class. Ahh...memories to ponder upon when I'm old[er].

The three ladies [Me, Fiona n Evonne]

Dina entertained us!

Highlight for the night: I was best dressed female. The hassle of getting that dress made paid off in the end..even though the payment was little [the prize was RM50]. Little did anyone know that I hardly could breathe, eat and walk in that dress.

After the gala ended and the dancing began, we took more photos. Headed over to Zouk for drinks. It was Nick's birthday. Stayed there until 1.30am. Alex came and picked us up. He was nice enough to drive the Volvo instead of Satria. I can't imagined sitting in a Satria with my dress..I could barely move. Being ladylike has its disadvantages. Fiona and Alex hang for awhile at Evonne's house. Poor guy was barely awake. They left around 2am. Slept over at Evonne's house. I fell asleep around 3.30am. Around 4.30am, someone called..no idea who. I hate getting calls from private numbers coz I never know who to expect on the other line.

Back to normal Shari

In the morning, Beng picked me and Evonne up. He sent me home first and Evonne after that. My weekend was amazing. Good times with people that I cared about.

P/S: More photos up soon. Need to get them from Fiona and Evonne.

2 more assignments to write. I think I'm gaining weight; keep on eating and eating. Got the dress today; can't complain much. I'm just happy it got done on time. Everything's all set for this Friday. Sleeping over at Evonne's house this Friday. Can't wait for some female bonding.

Been spending too much time with Brian since he's back in town. He's leaving next Sunday *pouts* I'm kinda broke even though I got alot of duit raya. Spent it all on petrol, car maintenance and food. Sigh, I'm not even working yet! I'm tired and moody, damn period!

Still writing my report. Wrote about 145 words by this morning. Wanted to chat online with Em and Lee but my Messenger keeps hanging; decided to re-download it.

Yesterday, I didn't do much shopping. Mum and sis bought alot. I'll probably shop on Wednesday for shoes. Sameir will be spending raya with us this year. Actually, I don't have much to write. I'm PMSing right now, I miss my friends. I want to eat cookies but no chance since I'm fasting. Hopefully I've lost weight.

Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my friends. Take care and love u guys/girls.

Few more days to Raya. Which means I got almost a week to finsh up my second assignment, a week to get my dress and 2 more weeks for Prom. Can't wait to blow off some steam. Suppose to be out today with friends but I decided to get my priorities right this tiime. I managed to clean my room; just in case relatives wanna sleep for Raya.

I managed to do my laundry and surprisingly, cooked for my family. Nothing special though, just pasta. For a Malay, I have no clue how to cook anything Malay-ness [I know there's no word like that]. Mum tries to teach me but seriously, I don't see myself cooking anytime soon. Currently, I'm a Kitchen Snob. LOL

Tomorrow, around 8.30am I'm going shopping. Well, actually my sis and mum are..I'm just tagging along, just in case I see anything I like. Tomorrow, I'm also going to the airport coz Brian and his son will be in KL for a visit. Can't wait to see them. I better get my eyes back on the assignment; I really hate Marketing class....just the lecturer actually! My Raya is ruined because of the assignment. Damn it!

Finally, I got some work done on my assignment. Its a 2500-words assignment on Japan. I've been reading for the past whole week about Japan and the current government. So, I can proudly say that I've learnt something this weekend *smiles*

Looking forward for Raya. Can't wait to get $ and some time off from studying!! This year would be my last year to collect duit raya *pouts* coz hopefully by next year, I'll be working and earning my own cash. The Cameron Highlands trip isn't happening coz the hotel we wanted is already fully booked. The good news is that since my granny's house in Penang will be packed with relatives for Raya, dad decided to stay in a hotel instead. I'm so happy since I don't have to share rooms with anyone like at granny's house.

Oh yeah, this morning..I got a prank call. The call went like this:
Me: Hello?
The caller: Can I speak to Ms. Shari...pls?
Me: Yes speaking.
T.C: I'm calling from college. I was wondering if u can come to college tomorrow for a talk.
Me: What talk would that be?
T.C: The talk would be on Safe Sex.
Me [still clueless]: Huh? I have classes tomorrow. What time is the talk?
T.C: Can u come? Can u call your friends, Fiona and Evonne also? [The caller was laughing at this point].
Me: Huh?
T.C: It's Fiona here...hehehhehe.

Yes I got dooped by my own friends, Evonne and Fiona!!

Condolence to the First Family for their loss. I learnt about it yesterday while driving home from college. Was shocked to hear about it on the radio since I always imagined the First Lady would overcome her battle with cancer.

Well, let's just hope for better things now.

I got a very unexpected phone call today from an old friend. The last time we met or spoken to each other is when we were 12 years old. We parted in quite a bad way. I regret the way we lost contact and the lack of effort in keeping a friendship work. We exchanged home addresses and so on. I'm looking forward in meeting up with her. and a few other friends. Sweet memories.

Anyway, my dress-hunting days are over. On Thursday [after a week of finding a dress], Fiona and myself decided to have our dresses tailor-made; saving time and effort to find a dress. Since Evonne got her dress made earlier this year, we decided to pay a visit to her tailor since my tailor is busy with Hari Raya orders and all. After Thursday's classes, I drove to Sri Petaling with Fiona. It was pretty easy to find the tailor's shop but the process of finding a parking space was "my-god" that bad. After showing our designs, the tailor gave some input on what would look good on us. So I decided on this long gown design. Hard to describe it; hopefully it turns out good.The cost to make the dress made me go over my budget by RM10 which is ok. I even get to pick my own fabric since I thought it would be cheaper.

After seeing the tailor, I parked my car at Bukit Jalil LRT Station to head over to Jalan TAR to get the fabrics. Fiona came along; I joked that for someone who is fasting [which is me], I sure had alot of energy to walk alot. After finding and buying the stuff we wanted for the dresses, we both took our trains separately. I was suppose to give the fabrics to the tailor on Saturday but I thought I might as well give it to her that same day. So from LRT station, I drove back to Sri Petaling to hand in the fabrics. As my friends would say, "It's worth every penny to get something u want". The dress would be ready a week before the prom. By that time, I'll be getting my duit raya so I can splurge on accessories like shoes.

For Raya, sis suggested that we go back to Penang [to visit granny] on the second day of Raya. After that, a trip to Cameron Highlands.

Reminder to self: book 3 hotel rooms tomorrow for that trip!

Neglecting my blog as always. I've been busy.. looking around for a prom dress, went back to Penang, met up with friends and Uncle over there and plenty of eating. Its the fasting month right now; but I have yet to fast. I can't believe my dumb luck that I got my period on the first day of fasting till now. I'll probably gain weight instead of losing some this month.

I'm pretty tired from the Penang trip even though, I did nothing except hang out with friends or sleeping in the hotel room. Yup, dad decided to stay in a hotel instead of our usual place, granny's house. Which is fine with me. Left for Penang on Friday after picking up Aqif from his kindergarden. Took the ferry ride to the Island. Did some shopping. Friends took me to the Garage. Had dinner with Uncle. Left Penang yesterday afternoon.

Today, I'm avoiding the urge to go out with friends. Too tired and its bloody hot outside. This comment coming from a person who's not fasting!!! Anyway, happy fasting.

P/S: anyone knows where to get a prom dress??!!??

KLCC..went there yesterday and today. Yesterday, movie [The Longest Yard] with Mark. Was really happy to see him; told him about this crush I'm having *blush* Did my best not to shop even though Isetan was on sale.

However, the lure of the sale overpowered my desire to save money. Planned to just sit at home and watch TV today. Around noon, sis and her hubby came home early from work. They took half day off. They decided to go shopping at KLCC since I told them about the sale y'day. I tried to convinced myself that I should stay at home instead of tagging along. But I couldn't resist plus there was nothing good on Astro anyway. Aqif was excited to go out finally. In the end, sis got pair of shoes and some stuff, her hubby bought jeans, Aqif...let's just say, that he got his wardrobe updated for Raya and toys to go along with it. I bought a handbag; which sis is trying to buy from me..no way I'm selling it to her. So, I technically broke my vow of not shopping anymore this year! Who cares! The bag was dirt cheap even though it's a designer. Overall, I'm happy today.

Tired. Whole body aching. Need to do lots of reading this weekend. Presentation on Tuesday. The only good thing this week is he asked me out *smiles*. Not sure when though. Aqif's concert will be this Sat. Can't wait to see my nephew dance.

Plans for the weekend: meet up with friends, get lots of sleep, eat proper meals and STUDY!

I'm so looking forward today; why?!!? Coz I can just relax and watch TV shows that I missed during the weekdays [Thank U Astro!!] Sameir won't be around this weekend coz he has stuff to do with his mum so only one of my nephews will be around. The one that I can tell "shut up" to without him talking back to me. Aqif is bored out of his mind since both of his parents are working today; he even begged me to take him out but I'm too lazy to drive.

Earlier on MSN, Evonne told me about she and Steven's happy news. So happy for her. So, only left me out in the "Three Stooges" without someone, hehe. Not that I mind though. Speaking of someone, I'm trying my best not to jinx this one. So, I wouldn't be talking or blogging about him anywhere on the Net or in real life. I don't want to get my hopes up coz he's been giving mixed signals. Well, enuff said about that issue.

I fnally got a haircut. It's quite short. Mark would be surprised since I always told him I wanted to keep my hair long but I wanted something different now. Currently, I'm looking like a small girl. I'll upload a pic if I get a chance to take one. Its weird how fickle minded I'm getting nowadays; no idea why. Who cares anyway right. I'm tired of doing things people's way; right now I prefer doing things by my own pace. I'm actually supposed to check dad's summons [if any] but the damn gov. site is doing maintenence on its servers. Bloody hell, waste my time only.

I found the assignment that I lost the other day. Very happy right now. I'm having doubts about doing the project since my friend is pretty busy nowadays and I don't want to bother him with questions and stuff. I'll probably focus on something else...if my supervisor lets me.

I've been wondering why I'm always low on cash since college reopened. Well, finally realised that I've been spending too much time at mamak drinking my favourite drinks since the breaks in between classes are becoming more frequent. So far, two friends had commented that I gained weight; which is no big deal for me since I'll probably lose weight during fasting month or when I get stress. Nowadays, been hanging out more with Fiona and Evonne. I don't mind giving them a lift to college from Bangsar station since this semester will probably be the last time that we three are able to really spend time together. Yesyes, I'm still fearing next year when I'll be graduating [hopefully].

One thing that bothers me this week is a certain lecturer. I truly don't get the way he teaches. Its really that bad; Evonne is writing a letter of complaint to the Head of Department. Hopefully that would change things. Well, off to do research.

I'm so pissed off with myself right now; I managed to "misplace" something. The file contains the proposal for my final year project. How can I be so careless. Hopefully the department still has a copy of the assignment. The other day, I lost a receipt [which I needed to get my books from the photocopying shop]..luckily I managed to find it in the rubbish bin [at college] before it got throw out. Evonne and Fiona thinks there's something wrong with me..coz I'm not usually like this. I need to relax or something.

Speaking of relaxing, no classes today [yippee] but I have to clean my room which is a complete mess! Life is so interesting nowadays *pouts*

College started; getting lazier to blog since I'm so bloody tired nowadays. Last week [Thursday], went out with Evonne and Fiona to Midvalley. I had the mood to shop [thus, being broke now]. Got 2 tops from Zara, a pair of white flats and 3 pairs of earrings! I shall not shop again [unless for gifts].

Saturday, I attended a wedding; sister's friend. I know her from my temping experience at sis's office. It was nice even though, I hardly knew anybody there. Sunday was my day of being a bum. Today, I did house chores. Now, I'm chatting with Eugene on messenger while talking to Em on the phone. Tomorrow, off to college around 8.30am. Classes starting at 12; going early to register subjects and pay the fees [RM6,600 gone just like that]!!

Sunday
Finally, the day of my bro's pertunangan (engagement). Woke up extra earlier to get things done. I knew that we had to leave home around 1pm to get to Uncle Kassim's house; around 11am..I was still unsure on what to wear. Finally I decided to wear my purple baju kebaya; one of the reasons was it was already ironed [I just HATE ironing!!]. After putting everything in the car, I drove to Uncle's house along with dad and mum. Bro left with my cousin, Boy in another car. For some reason, we just call him Boy [not his real name], I don't really remember his full name becos of this.

At uncle's place, we had lunch and waited for my other aunt to arrive [she forgot the timing!!]. Around 3pm, we finally made it to Elly's house. My goodness, the house was packed with relatives. Most of whom were from Sabah [a slight language barrier since they spoke Malay differently from my family]. After exchanging the dulangs [tray of gifts], we had lunch again..I could only managed to eat a piece of chicken. Took photos with my future sis-in-law.

The gifts from my side to give to Elly

Elly and me

By the time I reached home, it was around 7pm..I was tired, my feet ached, and I seriously had bad "monthly" pains!

Today
College, took the class schedule. Had breakfast with Beng and Evonne. Went to Midvalley to shop. Bought a Nike T-shirt. Tired. Moody. And very much troubled about how my friends are; after reading their blogs. Off to bed. Night everyone.

Aqif left this morning to Kelantan; his uncle is getting hitched so he'll be staying at his granny's place for 5 days or so. Leaving me [his aunt] bored to death since without him around, the house is quiet...no shouting and crying. Furthermore, I wont be able to celebrate his birthday with him since he'll be in Kelantan :(

To avoid being bored, went out with my parents today; yesyes..I still enjoy going out with them. Had to see the dentist [after a year or so of not]; which made me..RM150 poorer. Mum bought some stuff which didn't quite interest me in any way possible. Then, dad had sudden craving for "nasi kandar". So, we drove down to PJ from KL. After a heavy lunch, I met up with Daniel who was bored waiting for his car to get serviced. So, I asked dad to drop me off at Daniel's friend's place. Was surprised to see Daniel's face sunburnt when he picked me up by cab. The fella is like a cooked lobster [a well-done one]. While waiting for the car to be ready, we talked. He suggested we make a trip down to Melaka this weekend but I couldn't coz of bro's engagement on Sunday. So, I asked him to come over to my house for BBQ. After 2 hours of waiting, the car was done. Went to Cyberjaya to pack his clothes; then picked up Nicki and Jason. They decided to sleep at my house tonight which is good since its been awhile anyway. Right now, Daniel is trying to fix my printer [somehow, I just keep on destroying printers!!], Nicki is painting her toenails, and Jason is trying to annoy me by taking photos of me. It takes plenty of effort to annoy me!

I'm so exhausted right now. Brother took MC coz he's sick and wants to buy stuff for this Sunday [the big engagement day]. Or bertunang; as we Malays would say it. Finally got the ring, the flowers and other stuff. I practically lost weight waking around Klang town today with my nephew in tow. Luckily, we finally found the wedding shop after 30 minutes of walking around aimlessly! The theme was pink on my family's side while Elly's is light green.

This whole bertunang deal is when the male[future groom] side will visit the girl's side to get to know one another. They exchange gifts [usually the girl's side will give more stuff to the guy's side]. In my bro's case, we're giving 5 trays of gifts [the ring, perfume thingy, clothing, flowers, and hmm..I can't remember what]. Elly will then give us back 7 trays of gifts [no idea what]. Then my mum will put on the ring on Elly's finger. So that's the bertunang ceremony.

I'll be starting classes next Monday. Can't believe I'll be graduating by the end of the year [fingers crossed]. Oh yeah, Merdeka to all Malaysians.

After days of being lazy bum, I finally did something productive today...Chasing after my 2 nephews around the house. It was a complete workout from head to toe! Boy, those two brats can really make my blood boil. I think I got like 2 new wrinkle lines from the excitement today. Anyway, I'm looking forward to this Saturday; coz I'm finally able to meet Mark [after alot of cancelling our previous appointments].

This whole deal with that Malay guy is going nowhere. First of all, I know he's still with his girl [that girl is really a basket case, really the jealous thing]. Second, as Em would put it; Shari has the case of commitment-phobia! Yup, once I like a guy or the guy likes me..I go into this whole analytical mindset. I analyze if he's nice, polite, can make me happy so that in the future [if there is one], there will be no heartbreak. No longer can I just go with the flow of things. Since my dear Em told me this, I decided to relax and avoid thinking too much. Life is short and a nice guy is very hard to find nowadays; please point one to me if you able to find one. This guy is really sweet and all so, if he's available the next time I see him...well, you'll never know what Shari will do *winks*

What a great day. Finally went out with him; feeling bad coz at the end of our date, I found out he had to skip one of his classes to meet me. We met up around 1, coz he had to go for his morning classes. Did some stuff [getting documents and all]. I was about to head home [actually, I wanted to go shopping by myself] but he asked if I was free for lunch or just drinks. I said yes [I know how hard it is to meet with him so my answer had to be YES].

He took me to one of his hang outs; just a nice quiet mamak stall [I'll never tell where it was!]. We spent like 3 hours talking without ordering a second drink. I had my usual Iced Nescafe [yummy]. He told I was dieting since I skipped lunch but nowadays, my eating habits are really bad..I snack too much at night. Around 4, we left [he had class in 30 minutes]. As promised, he even give my commission for getting my sis to buy a car from him. I almost got lost, damn those lorries!

At a traffic light [it was a red light at that time], his car was next to mine. He wane down his window [I did the same], we talked until the light turned green [meaning go!]. He asked if it would be alright if we catch a movie someday. I said of course can and he can call me anytime to ask for a date [I prefer him to call since I'm the one who's always free]. Overall, he's the nicest Malay guy I've met so far.

Oh yeah, the haze at my area is getting better [hurray!].

The haze is really bad at my area. The govt even declared haze emergency since the air quality here is "unhealthy". I even got chest pains yesterday; something I haven't had for 2 years now.

I even had to cancel my plans to go out tomorrow with that guy because of the haze. Better stay in doors! The pic here was taken earlier when I was driving home [heading towards West Port] from the Klang town. I heard some "smart" people are still doing open burning even now; how clueless and selfish!!??!! The haze is caused by the forest fires in Sumatra. This is the time when I wished I didn't stay near the sea. Aqif got time off school since the Ministry of Education announced that all schools in Selangor/Kuala Lumpur should be closed till Friday. Hopefully the haze will go away and we, Malaysians can finally take in fresh air.

Right now, I'm feeling so restless. Tim will be leaving for London tomorrow morning; I'm not sending him off coz I'm sick. I've been very tempermental lately too;don't think its PMS coz I just had my monthly visit. Suppose to go out with someone today but he only called me this morning to confirm. Too bad, I had to send Sameir back to his mum's place. I told that I'll go out with him this Friday if nothing else comes up.

Went out with Evonne on Friday. First, to get my exam results. I didn't do that good..could have done better as dad would say. After that, we went to Midvalley to see a movie [Seven Swords]. The movie was ok...too violent for my liking. It was too cold in the cinema that some people actually left; even though the movie was still going on. I actually started to shiver..should have wore the long-sleeve blouse instead. Anyway, I left after the movie was over. Evonne met up with her friends.

Mark wouldn't tell me what he got me. Sigh, I tried guessing but he still keeping it a secret! I hate surprises..especially ones that I can't know! Well, I'm off for a nap.

I'm finally legal to do anything...yahooo.....

My birthday (28/7)
At 12am, Evonne was the first one to sms me [I was cleaning my room at the time]. Then, Em and Lee called from Aus. [we spoke for one hour] Their gift is being couriered to me..probably get it tomorrow or so. Slept around 3am after sending everyone "thank-u" smses for wishing on my b'day. Around 6am, someone called [I have no idea who]. Friends came into my room..surprised me with flowers [daisies]. I was in my pajamas and they only let me wear a jacket over it to go out coz they wanted to take me out for breakfast. I was barely awake when I was sipping my Iced Nescafe. After that, it was time to open up gifts. I got alot of hand-made stuff which I loved [thanks people] The one that I really cherished is from Tim. Thanks dearie. After breakfast, they took me home coz I made plans for lunch.

Met up with Evonne, Beng and Fiona for lunch. It was just Japanese food but it was the friends I was with that mattered the most. Beng got me something from Body Shop [Thank you so much]. We talked and talked then only realised that we were so noisy! Fiona had to work so we said our goodbyes. The three of us just walked around Midvalley..going to one shop to another. I saw a really nice-looking beg from Esprit...I might get it. Around 3 plus, we went home coz Beng had to take care of his granny. On the way home, Daniel called to meet up. We met somewhere in Shah Alam for a drink. Around 5.30pm, I had to leave to get ready for dinner with the family. Took my family for dinner [it was on me]. Aqif gave me a kiss and a hug [I had to asked for it] After dinner, went home, talked to several friends, ate my cake and slept off on the living room's floor. Overall, my birthday celebration was quiet but in a good way. I wanted it to be memorable and it was. Thanks to all my friends for everything. Some photos will be up later. I promise!!!!

Today 2/8
Mark is back from his trip. He got me something but I don't know what it is....damnit. I'm really bad at waiting! Tim is leaving on this Friday *pouts*
Things to do:
Meet up with Mark, Give Mel his gift, Meet up with him, See the tailor and MUST GO SHOPPING!!

Updates:
1) I'm turning 21 this Thursday..yahooo!
2) Almost everyone I know is having flu/fever. Touch wood for me.
3) Sister got her Citra [finally], some of the other clients had to wait up to 6 months to get it but sis [due to my friendship with him] managed to get hers only after a 2-months wait.
4) Brother is getting engaged soon; need to start buying barang hantaran for the pertunangan.

My birthday wishlist:
1) DKNY Be Delicious Perfume [my number one fav.]
2) A belt or a bag whould do.
3) Cds especially the one from the band which concert I planned to go but didn't.
4) Being with friends.
5) My fav. flowers.

P/S: No one get me any necklaces...and so on. I have enough unless its made of gold/diamonds [winks]

I finally got my pay..yahooo...

Woke up around 8am [mum had to wake me up]. Headed to One Utama around 9.45. Got there around 10.30; waited for Beng and Evonne to pick me up. Was suppose to be at Sean's office around 12 but we were early [my fault]. Sean hadn't even got our money ready yet so he asked us to give him a lift to the bank [Patrick came along]. After doing the banking thing, drove back to Damansara Kim to drop Patrick and Sean back in the office. Evonne wanted to go home after that but we decided to have lunch first while persuading her to join me and Beng for the movie.

We headed for McDonald's at Bandar Utama. It was the only place we could think of coz after lunch, Beng needed to drop off Evonne at the nearest LRT station. After ordering the yummy food [I was damn hungry], we sat at a booth. I had a clear view of the whole place even the entrance. Anyway, we were all goofing around and busy talking while someone caught my eye. The person was entering the place with a lady. At first, I thought it was Viknes [yes, I really need to wear my glasses all the time]. I made no biggie out of it and continued talking. Then, I glanced another time..it was my ex, Yoges. Took me by surprise..Evonne started to giggle at my situation. I almost choked on my Cola.

We continued to finished our meal. I wanted to walk over to his table to say hi to him and his gf. But I was just too darn lazy. After lunch and that whole situation, we headed to One Utama. Managed to convinced Evonne to hang out with us. Wanted to watch Fantastic Four but opted for The Island instead. The movie was cool; it made me think about some stuff. Oh yeah, for my birthday, I'm having a small gathering with friends. Waiting for Mark to get back from his holiday so that we can have another celebration! I seriously miss him..no idea why...hmmm......?

Lesson of the day: Always wear glasses; at all times.
Sms of the day: From J: "...hoping to piss em off with my presence enough to get retrenched" when I asked him if he's still working at our old office.

I'm being too lazy nowadays. Might need to get another job soon. But even that, I'm too lazy to find. Anyway, alot of things has happened since I've last blogged. Tim is still around but I haven't seen him since Sunday coz I'm sick [flu]. My birthday is next week; need to plan some sort of celebration or whatever. It all depends if I'm getting my pay or not.

My outing with Beng the other day was nice. Watched a movie, had lunch, went shoe-shopping. I finally found a pair of heels that I really liked. Thanks to Beng's great taste. I wanted to get a beg too but I'm trying to save up money plus I'm currently broke. I even used up my allowance in 5 days; I have no idea what I used the money for. I really need to see the dentist; its been like a year or so since my teeth has been checked. Today is J's birthday. I wished him through sms; he's ok with me now. I'm so happy that we could be friends after all that he-stalking-me ordeal. I wished him all the best and hope that he gets a girlfriend soon which he denies he will coz he plans to be single; [yeah right!!??!!]

Ok, I'm off to bed. Beginning to feel sleepy. Nite.

I'm enjoying my free time. No waking up early, no sleeping early, bascially I do nothing. Mum hasn't been on my case since by next year, I'll be an adult..meaning, I have to start earning my own living. Actually looking forward to earning my own cash and of course, spending it.

My weekend was spent by staying at home with a few dates with Tim. I'm so happy that he's around and not in London [he was due back there tomorrow] but due to the bombings, his parents decided to let him chill in KL till the end of the month. This means he'll be around for my birthday. Speaking of which, I'm making a list of what I want...

1. A leather belt [a really good one]
2. DKNY Be Delicious Perfume

I'm still thinking of what I want. Mel called on Saturday,to meet up with him and Mark but I was lazy plus busy with bro's engagement stuff. Yup, my bro is finally getting hitched. The wedding is next year though. Can't wait to get a new sister-in-law :)

Another lovely day at work. The current contestants, [Uncle] Lawrence, Teoh, Kim and Mark are still showing signs of not giving up. Today is the fourth day of the final leg for the Tuff Enuff Challenge. Yesterday was Teoh's birthday [his 21st], poor guy had no one to celebrate it with him since he's from Penang. If all the contestants are still going on strong on Sunday [Final day], then the competition might need to be extended untill there's only one left standing. Which means i might have to work longer! I really want to chill out on a beach somewhere right now.

I got the strangest feeling that something is going to happen soon. What could it be?? Hmmm... I wonder what! Mum thinks I'm getting darker from working at Sg Wang in the hot sun. I think so myself; but who cares. I have to meet with several of my friends; Mark before he's off to London, Harith [the guy is so sweet...], Beng [my best "guy" friend] and of course, Tim. Tim is back from UK; I only found out this morning from my Dad [of all people]. It seems that dear ol' Tim done a stupid thing by shaving off his hair. Poor guy must be looking like a bald rat right now.

Another thing that's been bugging me is my Ex. Not THAT ONE, ok! but the first guy I ever dated. I wonder how he is, whether his looks changed, is he still annoying. Even though we parted in bad terms, I always had a soft spot for him, Mi. His family was always nice to me. I can't believe how I was back then; it was really a "little girl's crush". Anyway, I hope everything works out well for him.

Finally I have time to blog. I'm working for the Hitz FM/Ford Tuff Enuff Challenge which is going on at Sg Wang Main Entrance. Evonne and me are on the morning shift [7am to 3pm]; just imagine how early I have to wake up to get ready for work! Anyway, I can't take any day off so I'm practically tired by the end of each week [another 2 more weeks to go till the finals] I'm hoping for the KL finalist to win; its down to Kim and Nathan now. The car stinks by now; somehow the public is amazed how we can stand the smell, LOL.

But to me. A guy asked me out for a date. I said maybe, then I said that I'm busy. Strange, I won't mind having someone in my life but somehow, I'm being "Chandler", afraid to commit. Talked to Em about this and she said the most truest thing..."Shari, when you're with someone, your face glows with joy, right now, it doesn't but soon it would be, that I pray for everyday" Thanks to my PMS mood, I cried when she said that. I truly miss that girl! Em, you better come back to KL soon k. Anyway, I took lots of photos nowadays...hopefully I have the time to upload them.

One more paper to go. Today's exam was not as bad as I thought it would be. Strangely I was able to answer all 4 questions [in essay format] just in time to hand it in. I'm off from work today but I'm still feeling tired from yesterday :(

Work has been fun [cos the girls are around] but very tiring [8 hours shift]. My shift starts from 7am to 3pm; I have very little time to study or rest. The contestants so far have been nice and friendly; though their request for certain things is getting on my nerves. I'm not sure who will win the car though; hopefully the KL contestant will. Right now, I'm studying for Friday's paper; reading up on Culture. Might meet up with Mark this Saturday after my shift is over; [note to self: bring change of shirt]. Seriously, I stink after 8 hours of working..it is so hot in KL. Note to Friends: Inform me a day earlier before wanting to meet me; so that I can bring a shirt to change from my uniform. Bringing camera tomorrow; will post photos soon.

My week of Firsts of everything…

I took my first ride on the monorail on Tuesday. From KL Sentral, another first for me. Never been to that place before. I got completely lost there…hardly knew my way around. Kept asking for directions from people..felt a little bit like a tourist.

Met up with Mark for lunch and a movie [Star Wars]. While having lunch, we had a nice conversation about what’s new with both our life. I’m on my two-weeks study break, exams will be on the 8th and 10th of June. I’m nowhere close in mastering the subjects I took; wish me tons of luck. Another first would be the trip to Berjaya Times Square with Mark. Finally, I’ve made it there. Then another first was visiting the Borders bookstore. I’m quite impressed with it but the place is quite bare. Caught a couple making out in the corner though..tsk..tsk…..hehehe

The movie was good; though Anakin/Darth Vader wasn’t much of a baddie. Natalie Portman was amazing; she looked hot that even me as a girl could have fallen for her looks. After the movie, we sat at StarBucks in Borders for another meal. We had cakes and tea; I was craving for the cheesecake the day before. Lucky me; the blueberry cake was heavenly. I offered to redo his blog layout; which I will after my exams and after my own site is up and running [Shari will be moving from Blogger to another site]. Mark was going to tell me something during this time but he doesn’t not to. Meanie! I’m still wondering what is it..should get Mel to interrogate Mark on this. He won’t spill anything [damnit]….

Around 4.30, we left. I had a great time that day. Took my mind off the stress of dealing with so many things that’s been going on in my life so far. Seriously miss the girls..no more gossips till next 2 weeks. This weekend, I’ll be heading off to Penang for a wedding. Looking forward to eat..eat…and eat.

That was for last week's events.

I'm now recovering from really bad case of flu, migraine and the monthly womanly pain known to everyone as PERIOD. I''ve never been so sick beofre [this year anyway]; my routine for this week is sleep, have medicine, sleep, and study around 3am for exams. I'm starting work soon; can't wait to earn $$$. The Penang trip was great except a relative of my mum passed away. The reason was the Doc gave her the wrong pills for her chicken pox/diabetes! I could have strangle the Doc for such a silly and deadly act.

Bro is now in Indonesia, not sure which part. Lucky him to get a job that involves travelling. Anyway, I can't wait for him to get back so that he can take back his car from the workshop so that I can start using my car back. I'm sorry for being an idiot to Em and Tim the other day on the phone; I was moody and my childish ways got ahead of me. Luckily they still love me just the same [thanks for understanding]. Well, that's all. Off to studying.

Oh yeah, come support the participants [will be announced soon]. You might just see me at work [winks]

Doing the research proposal right now. Considering how limited [I'm too lazy to find more] the literature on the company I'm focusing on, I don't think my research would be that good. Thank god, my dad isn't one of those parents who pressured their kids into getting ONLY A's for exams. Anyway, I'm surprised to know that the company is quite famous amongst researchers..found a couple of websites that actually featured the company. Sorry if I sound like an ignorant but this is the result of doing last-minute reading on the company.

Strangely enough, its been almost a month since I seen any of my best friends excluding the girls and Beng in college. I miss them all but I think since exams are near, they try not to bother me about going out. The funny thing is I'm comfortable staying at home during the weekends; that I don't feel bored. Friends would be surprised to learn this since I was always the one going out during weekends. But, people change and so have I. No longer am I the one eager to go clubbing or hanging out at those so-called trendy places. Signs of getting old as Shah would put it but who cares...as long as I'm happy and it's not hurting anyone.

Speaking of Shah, I had lunch with him and his family the other day. Yes, his girl was there too. The mum wanted to thank me for baking her a cake for Mother's Day. They took me out for lunch..the whole works. Oh yeah, for Mother's Day..I managed to bake cakes for my mum, Shah's mum, Daniel's mum and Tim's mum. Mum thought it was weird of me to bake cakes for others but the mums are so nice to me. I think mum was just being jealous hehehe...

Star Wars is opening soon...not too keen about those type of movies though. I'll probably skip it.

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Finally stop raining.

Bad News: I haven't even started on my proposal. I beginning to hate assignments. I miss my friends. I can't wait to have classes tomorrow!

Good news: My sister is pregnant. Her best friend [my other cousin] is also pregnant. My nephew Aqif is in denial. He thinks no way a baby can fit in his mum's tummy. My brother is thinking of getting engaged end of the year. I got flowers from my cousin who's leaving for Queensland soon *pouts*

Oh yeah, a big congrats and hugs for that person who got promoted the other day. Yang, you know who you are *winks* hehehe....
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Should I...shouldn't I? Right now, I'm having second thoughts about taking care of Daniel's pet [a cat]. He're leaving for Japan tonight; and I'm suppose to take care of his car till next Friday. Can Shari do this while stressing over an assignment which is due next Friday. I agreed to this because Daniel has been a really good friend and I really wanted to pay back all the favors he did for me before. At least, I get my chance to have a pet. Family thinks I'll probably kill the cat by Saturday. Sigh.

Another week to go before my 2 weeks break then I'll be having exams. Then 3 months holiday. Planning to work but that I'll have to see how things go. Evonne the lucky girl got a part-time at the oh-so-famous IBM [that is so familiar to me..hehehe] *winks at Em* Fiona said she had a job for me; but I'm not sure if that's working out since I haven't heard anything else. The poor girl is sick...hope she'll feels better soon. Tim is coming back to KL in August which means I'll be staying up every night that month. I seriously hope that I don't migraines like when Lee was back in town.

Speaking of migraines, I'm having one right now. Off to write up my project proposal. Tata...

Oh yeah, my cousin is pregnant AGAIN...no wonder she always saying she's busy with the hubby...

In college right now.Have to wait till 11am; that's the time when the department allows students to hand in assignment.I think its a stupid rule! I have one hour left to burn; so here Iam blogging on the very slow computer in the library.

Seriously, this computer is getting on my nerves.It uses Netscape,so all the icons and words are all hay-wired. I didn't even sleep last day. Around 1.30am, I realised that my assignment was still not up-to-Shari's standards; so I woke up and redid some of the paragraphys. I'm suppose to apply this 5 Forces analysis to a company [Maxis, in my case]. I was awake till 3am; so might as well stay up the whole night. I went down stairs; made a cup of milo and played games on the PS2.

Dad was nice enough to send me to college today; since bro had to use my car. His car will only be ready in two weeks.I saw the photos of his damaged car; the damage was terrible. His whole front bumper dropped [smashed is more like it]. No one in the family knows about it except me cos I found out about it by looking through his handphone.

Sis managed to irriate me last night while I was busy typing up the assignment. I almost shouted at her but being the youngest in the family, I had to have respest towards her. Pity dad, he's waiting for me to hand in the work. I have no clue who's shirt I'm wearing right now; I think its my brother's girl shirt. Too bad.. it looks good on me anyway.

I apologized to those who sms me but I didn't reply. Blame it on my telco, Celcom. I only received last night's smses around 3.30am. Em thought I've dropped off the face of the earth since this past week..she sms me plenty of times but no reply from me. Had a nice chat with her last night; Lee got her a ring [lucky girl]. I'm so green with envy

I'm finally done with my OSIM2 assignment. Thank god!

Shari will now go off to bed..with her aching neck, back and really bad period pains. Have a good weekend ahead. Feeling so gulity for not attending Mel's party, hopefully he won't take it as a personal thing. Note to self: Buy him something!!!!

I'm having such a bad day. First, I woke up late for college, found out that my brother decided he was too sick to go work [I'm driving him to work nowadays], so I realized I still can make it for Mr B's class. Around 7am, a friend called to ask for a lift to her workplace. I said ok, as long as she waits for me at the highway petrol station. Picked her up..what a bad move!!!

She started complaining about being sleepy [who asked her to hang out so late anyway!!], I kept my cool by focusing on the road. Then, she started sighing everytime I had to brake, why...cos she said she'll be late for work again. At this point, I just scolded her. If you expect to be early for work, then wake up early [therefore, don't stay up late] and drive yourself to work early!! Is that so hard to do!! How can a 23 year old woman act that way!

I arrived just in time to get on the bus to the other block. Then, the third bad thing happened. The parking boomgate hit my car. The stupid guy was fixing it, I stopped to wait for him but there was another car coming so I drove past the gate. Next thing I saw was the boomgate hitting my car. Now my car's roof is slightly dented at the driver's side, the paint came off too! The annoying thing was the guy blamed me. I scolded him for being careless and he should fix the gate when no cars were coming in. Really spolit the rest of my day.

Mr B's class was the only enjoyable event I had. I managed to "lose" my brother's Touch & Go card [it had RM300 credit left in it] but found it under my car seat once I've calmed down. Then I sprained my hand by carrying too many heavy books. I'm hoping nothing else happens tonight since I'm planning to finish up [meaning start] on my assignment which is due on Friday. Wish me luck.

16 April, Saturday
Woke up smiling. The morning part was quite blurry due to Friday's night out with the guys. Talked to parents about the trip to Penang. Yup, I was suppose to leave for Penang on Saturday but after bargaining and pouting with the family, they said I can go for Mark's dinner as long as I head for Penang after that. Called Daniel and Nicki; Nicki had her birthday dinner that night too. Which made me free guilty for not attending it. Anyway, she agreed to tag along with me and Daniel on my Penang trip that night.

Back to Mark's dinner. We were suppose to meet up at 7.30pm, One Utama. I left home around 6.10 with Daniel. He was nice enough to use his car for the trip instead of mine; coz everytime I used mine for a trip...I get into an accident. Got a call from Mark on my way there. When I arrived, Mark and me were the only ones there. Walked for abit then head over to the restaurant. Felt weird sitting in a big table setting with him alone. The place was quite packed; with a long queue outside. We ordered soup for ourselves while waiting for the rest.

Mel and Lisa came [they looked good;I just envy Mel's height..hehe]. Then Nick, his date and Sharon came. We had a great meal topped with white wine. Mark's cousin was the last person to arrived. We were so noisy that I noticed the table next to us were giving evil looks. Its been awhile but I had a fab time. The part which I liked the most was when the girls and I tricked Mark into drinking olive oil laced with wine and when he gave me a peck on the cheek to say thanks for my gift. After 10, I got a call from Dad. It was Dad actually; but Daniel who was playing a trick on me. I said my goodbyes and left. Mark was nice enough to accompanied me. Daniel, his friends and Nicki waited for me in his car.

We took awhile to get to Penang due to my frequent toilet stops along the highway [Must be way too much drinking]. I called bro to check if there was any space at granny's. Alas, there wasn't so we headed to Batu Feringgi. Lucky for us that my uncle booked 2 rooms in advance just in case, one of his blur nieces/nephews [that would be me] forgot how small our Penang house is. We didn't sleep till 7am the next morning..why? Well, lets just say that I made a fool of myself in front of the gang and Daniel will never forget to wear his towel tightly the next time.

On Sunday, I left the hotel for the family thingy. I had to represent my family side. Damn it, hate being the youngest. I left after 2 hours coz I couldn't bear the boredom anymore. The gang was at the beach, I didn't bring my swimming suit so I used my tube top instead [yes, I looked stupid but I was desperate ok!]. We had nasi kandar for breakfast, lunch and supper. Dinner, I took them to this seafood place which was awesome. My sleeping patterns is seriously affected by this crazy weekend.

Today, we left Penang early in the morning to beat traffic on the bridge. Arrived around 1pm. Bro's car is in the workshop [he bang the highway divider..was speeding]. So, I have to be his driver this week. Things to do this week:

1. Meet up with Mark for a movie
2. See friend for the car that sis wanted [I'm getting commission :)]
3. Get my assignments done
4. Remember to call Em and Tim

I'm suppose to be doing my assignment but couldn't resist the temptation to blog. I'm feeling abit emotional today; missing Em and Tim. Tim has dropped off the face of the earth; worried that he hasn't returned my calls or e-mails. Hopefully he's doing well.

My day was so dull. The usual routine of going to college. The only fun I had was talking to the girls. Fiona has been having problems with her guy's mum. For some reason, that woman [the mum] is totally against Fiona. She told me the whole story while I was driving to the Bangsar Putra Station. I listened and sympathized with her story. She asked for my advice since I happened to go through a similiar situation before. I told her to never bend to the mum's pressure and stick to what you believe is right. I really hope things goes well between Alex and Fiona cos I think they make a great couple.

Well, off to do my work. May this week be a productive one for me :)

I'm such a lazy bum. Not only I'm ignoring my assignments..I'm ignoring this blog as well. I'm just getting plain lazy to do anything.

I even had the nerve to go out the whole day yesterday [Saturday]. I went out with Mark for a movie and to just hang out at Midvalley. The movie "Spanglish" was pretty good; I mean by the message it was trying to send out to the audience. Before the movie, we had a light snack [turkey sandwich which we shared]. I must admit that I'm trying to lose a couple of pound [my tummy area ONLY]. Yesterday was not a day for dieting. After the movie, we walked around to get some stuff. Mel called..the fella is quite eager to see me and Mark together. He still thinks we have something going out..and I don't mean the friendship type. I wanted to head home early but Mel sweet-talked me into staying longer. He and Lisa were at KLCC (for the Cleo event) so we had to wait for them to come over to Midvalley.

Mel looks good as usual. Lisa is drop damn cute!! As soon as they saw us, Mel went like "how long has the "relationship" between me and Mark going on". I had wanted to clear the rumors but Mel was determined to see something going on. So I think I'll just give in into his assumptions. Only Mark and I knows the truth. That we're just FRIENDS..nothing more. Anyway, I didn't talk much during the meet-up. My mind was kind of wandering around; I knew I had something important to do but had no idea what. Around 7.20pm, I left with Mark. He was nice enough to accompany me to my car. We said our goodbyes and hugged.

As soon as I left Midvalley, Shah called. Ohmygod, I forgot that I had a dinner date with him and his friends. I had to rushed to Shah Alam to meet up with the gang. Luckily, Nicki was there and she brought my clothes [too bad, it was a halter top....not a clothing for a mamak stall gathering]. Another lucky thing was Sue decided to cook for us instead. So I had a place and time to change into my newer clothes. Then the bad luck comes. The guys thought it was funny to pull my halter top's string while I was eating. Yup, I nearly flashed my boobs to the gang and I wasn't wearing anything underneath!!! Shah got mad coz no one bullies his "sayang". After he said that, the gang thought we got back together but I'm very much against that for several reasons. I had to explained that Shah and I are just an ex-couple who get along really well even after a bad break-up. I left around 10.30 coz I couldn't stand one of the girls whining.

Got home. Replied smses. Talked to mum. Had my supper. Slept off.

Been awhile since I've blogged. Reasons are:
1) My TmNet account is barred. Damn them for billing me late.
2) Lecturers are bombarding me with assignments
3) Shari is just plain lazy.

I'm in Midvalley now; in the cybercafe. With the girls, of course.Planning to skip Dr J's classes again. He is such a dull lecturer. While I was heading for the food court, Mark [my pink darling] called to ask if I was ok. The quake did affect my area [probably since I kind of lived on an island]. Surprisingly I was too dead asleep to realized it. When I woke up to head for classes, mum told me about it.

She said the whole area was shaking. She and dad thought it was their minds playing a trick on them [silly them]. The water in the tanks [in the toilets] actually overflow due to the quake. I was the only one in the house still sleeping when all of this happened. I was surprised that they forgot to wake me up.Anyway, I'm hoping that my family in Penang and in Indonesia are doing well.

Another hot day in Malaysia. How I wished I could wear "lesser clothes" to college; but being Malay..one could only expect those makcik and pakcik staring at you as if you came from Mars. Today was the beginning of Spring Equinox; suppose to be really hot today but it didn't make any difference since its been hot these past few weeks anyway.

Emily has already left for Aus. *pouts* My phone credit is RM0.23 so I can't call or sms anyone. To those to smsed me and received no reply, I'm so sorry but I still haven't reloaded my credit. I'll only do so maybe by this Friday. So any urgent matters, just miss call me and I'll call back [hopefully].

I haven't in awhile now because firstly, I'm just plain lazy and second, I just don't have the time. I'm pretty stressed-out this past week due to assignments and my bloody period is still not here; not that I have anything to worry about but still. Since I'm still pmsing, I'm eating like a guy, my back hurts and I just get angry quickly...damnit!

Emily is still around. Been taking her for dinner almost every night. She's been very helpful in helping me with my assignments. I'm so blessed to have her as my friend. Nicki and Daniel were suppose to have lunch at my house today but they ditched me to watch F1. Speaking of which, I got pissed off today when my brother had 3 extra tickets to watch F1 at Sepang. But I couldn't go cos my cousins were coming over for lunch so I had to stay at home to help my mum..damnit. The tickets was for the grandstand seats. Even Elly [my brother's gf] didn't go since she had a wedding to attend to.

It was ok, I guess since I got to hang out with my cousins. I can't believe one of them is flying off to Brisbane in June. I'm going to miss him...he was always my favourite cousin.

The good news for this week is I'll be moving my blog to a new site soon. Updates on this issue later in the week.

Mark and me *looking cubby*

I overslept this morning. My alarm was suppose to go off at 5.45am but it didn't due to my sleep-walking session during the night. I had sub-conciously switched off the ringer to my alarm. How silly is that.

Due to this mistake, I had to miss Mr B's class. By the time I woke up, he was already giving lecture. So I just decided to go for other classes instead. Reached WP around 9.45; lucky the girls saved a seat for me in class. Today's classes were pretty dull; I can't stand one of the classes so the girls and I just skipped the tutorial. Probably coz we didn't do his questions.

I'm getting really stressed out about the assignments. I really need to push up my grades. By the grades I got now, I'll probably getting a second lower or upper *pouts* Emily is having dinner downstairs right now; feeling gulity leaving her alone while I'm at college. She's leaving next Monday so I'll have to hang out with her soon.

Blogging from Daniel's place.

I woke up around 8.15am today. Was slightly moody due to last night's talk with Shah. That guy really is annoying at times; his current problem is with his dad. I'm too annoyed to blog about him.

Anyway, I had my usual cup of nescafe and started to read newpapers when my brother came. He was frantically showing off his new phone to me. He bought this. I was impressed with the phone and started to imagine myself getting a new phone. But alas, I promise myself that I'll save up for my trip instead. Took my shower around 10am. Was shampooing my hair when Mark called to ask something. Yup, I'm met up with him today.

Left home around 11am to head over to KLCC. It was nice to see Mark again. Probably coz I'm quite comfortable being around him; like I am with Daniel and Beng/the girls. Had lunch at Dome coz it was still early [the movie was at 2.10]. I had my usual chicken and mushroom pie while Mark had a sandwich [which tasted more to satay though]. Had our usual conversation. I wanted to get Adrian's gift but the bloody Maybank ATM was out-of-service. It seems it was nationwide. So, I'll just have to get it tomorrow. Did some window-shopping; Mark showed me what he wanted for his birthday. Thank god, coz I hate buying gifts for birthdays.

The movie we watched was "Sepet". While watching it, alot of memories [good ones] about my involvement in an inter-racial relationship starting to surface. I could see myself in the leading actress. By the end of the movie, I shed a few tears. It was the first time that I was proud of a Malaysian movie. It really shown how race shouldn't get in the way of being friends and how if you don't know a culture, you shouldn't judge it. Mark even bought the DVD after the movie ended cos it was just too damn good a movie.

A scene from the movie when Orked was explaining something to her friend about "You like who you like" concept was my favorite. I finally can say that I'm happy with how things turned out with that person. I'm happy that he found someone else and as for me, my someone is out there. if he isn't, well....too bad. Life is too beautiful to think about this things.

Oh yeah, before we left KLCC, Mark saw Sharon working. So we drop by at Chilies to say hello. Boy, was she surprised to see us. She didn't realise it was me at first. It was awkward meeting her coz I haven't seen her for so long. Well, I better go now. Need to pick up Emily from KLIA.

My darling friend is finally back in KL; even if it's only for a week.

I was blogging when the electricity went off..damn those people!!!

Anyway, I have no time to rewrite what I wrote so to sum things up quickly:

1) Dad is right now RM6612 poorer due to my college fees
2) I finally got my critical incident to write about; assignment due in May, I think.
3) I love the rain; even though I was soaking wet today [even my undies were soaked]....

I'm so happy that it's been raining 3 days straight now; I just can't stand sweating and sleeping while its raining outside, is just the best.

What have Shari been up to this weekend? Well, I've been busy cleaning my house. I mean, serious cleaning...first mop the floor, vacumn, wash clothes and iron them. No, I have not turned into a housewife [even though, I felt like one at Daniel's place]. I even washed my car, something that I enjoy doing during the weekends. Too bad it rained after that. I even helped Daniel clean up his place, that boy has no clue on how to use a washing machine. A really pampered fella but a cute one though.....

Today, went to college extra early to pay my college fees [it cost my dad RM6,612]. Met up with Evonne and Fiona. Fiona had a fit when the registrar over-charged her fees by RM600 so Fiona had to give that lady a piece of her mind. The misunderstanding was finally resolved by the end of the day. Had lunch at Strudels; I had chicken pasta and iced lemon tea; both were yummy. Mr R's class was not so boring; but I was eager to head home cos I knew it would rain today. Just my luck, it did. I was soaking wet by the time I got into my car; even my undies were wet.

Called Daniel on the way home. Told him about the Simple Plan gig at Mont Kiara this 29 March. Fiona offered me free tickets but I have no one to go with so I turned her down. Daniel can't accompany me cos he's flying to Brunei that week. Too bad, if only Aqif was old enough to go since my nephew is a major fan of SP.

Funny conversation I had with a guy on my way to Chan Sow Lin station today:

[Guy keeps staring at me which made me put on my jacket back, he then sits next to me]

Guy: hi. you're a student at HELP Uni. College?
Me: Yes.
Guy: What degree you're taking?
Me: Business Admin.
Guy: wow, that's nice. You have classes on Fridays?
Me: no, only Mondays to Thursdays.
Guy: Lucky you, so are you a mixed?
Me: [does that matter really?] No.
Guy: Local?
Me: Yes, pure Malaysian and a Malay.
Guy: Oic, Malay mixed with what then?
Me: Mixed with nothing. Just pure Malay [I hate getting this perception of me being mixed]
Guy: Oic, this is what I do [he hands me a mag]. It's for college students; interested in working for that mag?
Me: no, I stopped working part-time. thanks for the offer.
Guy: how old are you and how tall? must be 5'3 or something.
Me: I'm 21 and my height is not something I think often.
Guy: well, can I have your number in case; if there's a job like for the mag or an exhibition.
Me: Sorry, I don't give out my number. Thanks but I'm focusing on studies right now.
Guy: well, good luck. Too bad for me though.

That's the third time I've been offered a job that way. Told mum about it; she laughed about it.

Just came home from dinner at L's house; that boy can really fatten me up with his mum's pandan chicken, mutton curry and those yummy dessert. His sister is a complete blur case; I have never met a 25 year old lady who can't even cook an egg. That lady will be a total disappointment to her future husband since her idea of Saturday Night Fun is sleeping early after watching evening news; how sad.....

Well, I'm so happy today. I finally altered my jeans; thanks to my darling Beng. Pretty hectic day I had; rushed to college to register my Year 3 subjects. Yes, yours truly passed all her Year 2 exams which really made my week great. I'm officially a final year student; yahoooo. After registering my subjects, bumped into Anu; only to say hello. Took the LRT to Chan Sow Lin Station. Beng was kind enough to drive me and Fiona to Pertama Complex. Fiona wanted to alter 4 of her pants but doesn't know where to go for such service so I asked her to tag along.

We arrived there around 11.30am. The guy told us that our pants will only be ready after 2pm. So we had to hang around the place for almost 3 hours. Headed back to Sogo for breakfast/lunch. Only now, I noticed that Sogo is quite a big place. We ate at Delifrance; something that I haven't done for a long time. Too bad, there were no cinemas around the place cos Beng and me want to watch that new Malay movie, Sepet. I heard its quite good; my sister thinks that story is really close to my previous situation [Sis, how I hate you for saying that]. So, Beng suggested that we go out for the movie next Wednesday which I'm totally in for. Can't wait for those yummy caramel pop-corns.

The pants was ready only around 3. I bought myself a bag of Famous Amos cookies [no nuts, please] while Fiona happily bought the Stairways to Heaven soundtrack [that girl is a freak when it comes to soap operas]. We drop her off at CSL station while Beng drop me off at college since L and his sister were around the area. I met up with the sister at their car; L told us to drive back to his place first since he had to entertain clients. To my despair, the sister couldn't drive so I had to drive his car [I'm in love with Rexton]. Back at his place, I couldn't resist trying on my newly altered jeans which fit my legs/butt like a glove *cheeky smile*

So, this week is a very productive and happy week for dear old Shari......

Didn't plan to blog today but Evonne asked me to check her Hotmail account so might as well blog while checking the mails. I had a very tiring day at college. My day started.....

...at 5.50 am, alarm clock rang twice. Woke up with my eyes closed, bad move cos I bang into my toilet door. Class was at 8 am so I had to rushed to Subang area before 7. Seriously, after 7am, Subang roads will be jammed with cars; which I hate. Wanted to use the LDP to save on toll money but it was jammed so good old NPE was my best alternative. At toll point, I said thank you to the lady after paying. She was very surprised coz in her own words "you're the first person ever to say thanks to me"...I guess our Malaysian Prime Minister's campaign of spreading good values has affecting me.

Reached college around 7.15am. Took the bus from main black to WP. Waited for the girls in the class..only Fiona turned up for Mr B's class since si "Kucing [Cat]" Evonne overslept. His class was fun, making jokes about how Malaysian act "politely" on roads. Next we had Mr R's class; Evonne came finally. Today's classes were mostly about the final year project [thesis] that we had to do next semester. I'm feeling the pressure and stress of that right now. Mr W then came in to explain about the topics we can research on and other complicated stuff. We had only 30 minutes break today which is really silly to me.

Then, Dr J's class was on....really a bore. I never had a lecturer that's so boring. The class was till 6. By that time, the girls and I wanted to strangle the lecturer. Lucky me, I got to the bus on time to head over to main block. By the time, I left college..it was already 6.10. As usual, Kelana Jaya, Puchong Toll and Subang area was already packed with cars. Reached home around 7pm.

On the way home, Daniel called. He wanted to meet up for dinner but I was too tired to drive to Cyberjaya and mum made mutton curry for me so I couldn't skip dinner at home. I'll probably see him this Sunday since I need the SPSS software from him. Nicki is complaining that I'm too busy with college so I'm now ignoring her. Sorry babe, college comes first [till my degree is in my hands]...I'll see you on Sunday with Daniel k.

On a weird note, Fiona thinks I went on a trip during holidays cos I looke tanned. Shah thinks I looked different in some way while a new friend said "U look mixed but what are u really? not that it's a problem, I just find you exotic".....my reaction to that was "oh..la..la....."

Right now, I'm financially screwed. No more shopping for 4 months or so [hopefully I'll be able to keep this promise]. The parking rate at college isn't helping, just the other day I had to pay RM14 just to park my car at Wisma Perdana. Been thinking of getting the monthly access card but the people at Secure Parking isn't what I call "useful people".

Anyway, my second nephew [Sameir] just got warded this morning. Kak Zu called my brother to inform him about Sameir. I pitied the small fella; the things he has to go through cos of his parents' divorce. He's in the ward right now cos this morning, he started vomitting. This is the second time that he's being warded. I'll probably visit him later.

Kind of stresses over this assignment I'll be doing this semester. It's called CIA or Critical Incident Analysis. I have to write about a certain incident that occurred in my life which changed my perspective towards life, basically I need to write about something that has mold me into the person I am today. I'm not sure what to write....I thought of writing about friendship but it didn't really changed me much. Mr R said we can't write about accidents, break-ups and pets. Seriously, this assignment has got me thinking about my past. Should I write about how people perceived me due to my race or about how I took a friend for granted... I really need advice right now....

I'm so tempted to head over to Lot 10 after reading about a flea market that's going on over there [its till the 22th, so I'll probably drop by there next week]. There goes my promise....

Blogging with ice pack on my feet. Blisters all over from that stupid sport shoes [I had no time to put on socks so it was my fault]. Today is Valentine's Day; and my orientation day for my final year of degree. I slept through 2 alarms that I set last night; I woke around 7.15 am and I had to leave home around 7.30.

Everyone left the house around that time. Mum had to collect her meds from the doc while dad had to make deposits into my bank account [too bad, i can't use the account till legal age of 21]. Met up with Evonne and Beng in college. After awhile, Bee Yen was there and Tina came shortly after that. We as "good" students collecting our class schedules and heading straight to Ali Maju Bistro. I had my usual set of roti canai plus Nescafe. Had a chance to talk to Fiona [who is still in JB]. She said she miss me...LOL Miss you too girl. My mouth has been rather inactive without my gossip queens. Rushed to KLCC around 10.45 am...I was on my way to meet Mark.

For the first time [this year uh], I was early in meeting someone. So I spent my time [while waiting for him] looking for shoes. Saw a pair of lovely ones at Nose [which I later mistaken for Vincci]. We headed to Chilis to drown our pityful single life; it doesn't as bad as I make it out to be. I'm pretty happy at being single..I couldn't care much but having a guy has its benefit [evil smile]. I bought a pinkish/purple spaghetti top from MNG

The lunch was on me. We ate 3 types of dishes [I'm bad at remembering the names] and a glass of margarita each. I had the one that Mark said a Valentine drink cos it was red. We had our usual talk especially the nonsense stuff. We sat there for quite a long time while having people glancing at us from time to time; cos the food spread on our table. There were alot of leftovers so we had it packed to take away [Aqif ate most of it]. Before we ate, Mark took a photo of me on his phone cam for Melman since Mel wanted to know how I look after all this years of MIA [Missing In Action]. I hate taking photos coz I think I don't look good enough. For some reason, Mel thinks me and Mark are an item or soon-to-be an item. For future meet-ups, I plan to meet Mel; it's been a long time since we've met. I can't remember how Lisa looks also.

Went to TopShop since Mark wanted to get a black tie which he did. Looks good; I must say. Mark left his phone at Chilis so he had to head over there again. I was paying for my Vincci shoes that time so I was kind of worried about him. Lucky for him though; he got the phone back. After window-shopping, I conned Mark into giving him a ride. Been a long time since I went to his place so he had to direct me to his house [being a chauffer again here]; I only know how to get to Sentul..after that, I'm lost.

Earlier,being a big mouth..I told Mark something about my [censored]..which it was on his mind till I dropped him off at his place. I can't believe that lady at the lingerie shop said I have a big bustline for my size..what an insult..sigh. After dropping Mark off [he invited me up but I declined]; I headed home. So, Valentine's Day is pretty ok for me. Oh yeah, Happy V's Day to my darling Em, Lee and sweetheart Tim. Nikki, thanks for the bracelet. Kisses to all.

On Saturday, God must be playing a trick on me

I've been trying to meet up with Kavin for days. But things just got in the way. Weddings, Daniel moving in and Kim/Beng busy with CNY. Finally, able to meet up with her on Saturday. I smsed her the details on Thursday and Friday. We were trying to get Kim and Beng to join as well but too bad, they were busy. Miscommunication happened on Friday night between Kavin and me. I told her that Beng couldn't make it and she told me that Kim is outstation. So, me being dumb didn't confirm with her whether Saturday's meet-up is on or not. I assumed it was and so I was waiting for her at One Utama at around 11.30 am; the movie "Shall we dance" was at 12.10.

It was a sneak preview since the movie opens in Malaysia on the 17th Feb. I was so happy when I got the tickets booked. Just my luck that day....Kavin was still asleep around that time. Lucky, she finally switched on her phone and got my sms. Yes, she made it just in time. The movie is quite good; I recommend it to anyone. It wasn't much about love but more about finding something that keeps oneself happy and being happy with oneself is was matters. I truly love the meaning that the movie offers. I must say Richard Gere looks good in the movie..told mum about it. She said it must be my current attraction to older men....I guess she's right but only to older "handsome" and "being-rich-wouldn't-hurt" men....

Always the bridemaid. Maybe I'm destined to be single....

I was asked to be a bridemaid for Uncle's niece; I said yes because the bride is my childhood friend. Ironic thing is when we were little [she was 9 years old, I was 6], we used to play dress-up..pretending that she was the bride. Funny how things worked out for her.

Notice the bored look on my face.

Daniel took that and another pic which I would never publish on this blog [too revealing and I was wearing full make-up]. Anyway, he was my date for the wedding dinner. We ate alot that Uncle actually told me to act ladylike [I just love Chinese food]. I was pretty busy taking photos with relatives [Uncle's relatives actually but he calls me his daughter]. The old aunties kept pinching my cheeks and making a big fuss over my single status. By the end of the night [morning actually], I practically had to walk barefoot because my feet hurt from all the walking frm table A to B to C...

The condition of my hair after colouring it

I had my hair done last week or so. It cost me RM158 which includes a haircut, the colouring, the after-colour treatment and blow. I sat for 4 hours due to this process. I haven't even had my breakfast or lunch by the time I was done. The lady wanted to put highlights but I was too eager to go home and get ready for dinner with Shah's family.

He was pretty shocked when he saw me because he knows how in love I am with my hair and so, the sensible Shari would never do this [too bad, I didn't get highlights]. I guess I needed a change from my usual look. My nephew, Aqif didn't recognize me and even had the nerve of asking me "who am I" and "what happenened to my aunt".

As for the dinner with Shah and company, it went well. I'm happy to say that he found someone else. I had a fab time getting to know her [I warned her about Shah's habit of driving like a loonie]; I'm so glad that he found someone. Hopefully this time, everything goes well for him.

Finally, an update on the layout. I got bored with the black background...doesn't suit my current mood of being happy :)



Today started out very good. Went out shopping with sis, brother-in-law and nephew. Only after lunch, my day turned bad. I sprained my leg while walking down the stairs. Right now, there's a pack of ice on my swollen ankle. I'm so clumsy... Nicki is coming over [instead of me going to her place]. Another sleepover; she wanted to go clubbing but my feet got in the way. I wasn't in the mood of dancing anyway.



For some reason, I am awake at odd hours at nights thinking of stuffs [Evonne, this is your influence on me]. Stuff that sometimes make me; a very unhappy person. The moment that happens; I suddenly will have the urge of calling someone. Em or Tim..but I can't afford calling overseas anymore [bank balance left only RM250]. Shah has been my night companion; coz he's always calls around 3am or so. Why, coz he needs someone to help him brainstorm. Me being a very kind ex-girlfriend would always help out even though; I will end up sleeping over the phone. [mygod, this ankle is killing me] Smsing Mark while blogging right now.



Listening to a cd I found in one of my boxes [I can't believe I still keep stuff in boxes; to lazy to unpack]. Suprisingly, it's the cd that Michael gave me for Valentine's Day during the first year we were together. My favourite song is playing [no one knows about it except him]. Ahhh...the memories flooding into my mind. Chinese New Year is just around the corner. I called up Uncle earlier to ask if he intends on celebrating it. The answer was no and yes. No coz mummy's death. Yes coz the house is being sold after CNY. Most probably I'll stay over there during CNY to keep him conpany. Slightly happy that Uncle is moving on with his life. Must be a huge sadness upon him for losing a wife and a son [Michael] so soon in life.



On a happier note, Nicki is here. I seriously need a massage; my back and neck is killing me. I hate getting periods...damn those menstrual cycles!!

I'm back to my healthy self. No more sniffing, no more coughing and thank god, no more medicine. Those pills really do make my hair shed! Major treatment sessions are in need for my darling hair...Shari being very vain nowadays.



Right now, working on getting a new layout for this blog. I'm that bored at home so decided to make full use of my free time. I even started to do gardening...or more like killing mum's flowers. So this blog wouldn't be updated as often until I get the layout ready.



Planning to meet up with Kavin again. Next saturday coz this week I'm broke. Really need to see aunt for my monthly allowance. Not sure what the plans are for the meet-up though. A movie? Lunch, of course.

Yesterday [Sunday] around 12.10 pm, I met up with Mark. Meeting up with him almost every month now; nice to rekindle the forgotten friendship that we have. Promised him that I'll be in One Utama around 11-ish; a promise that I tried to keep until I saw Uncle Rosli's car parked in front of my car. So, I had to get out of my car to salam [meaning greet] my uncle and aunt; saw my cousins in the car but I just waved at them coz I was already late. Drove as fast as I could; the roads were pretty clear so the drive to O.U was a pleasant one.



I was pretty surprised at how quick and easy it was to get a parking space; cos that mall is always [over]packed with cars. While I was parking, Mark called...wondering where I was coz he remembered my promise. Hurried myself up to meet him in front of Guess boutique. I saw Mr Walter [my Marketing lecturer-my favorite as well] with his two kids; I didn't talked to him [coz on the phone with Mark]; all I did was smiled and waved like a lunatic. Hopefully, I didn't offend him especially at this when I'll be getting my exam results. Mark and I mostly walked around..I had to control myself from buying anymore clothes. Damn it, almost everywhere I turned, I saw the sign "SALE". If only I could spend my $$$.....



Mark made a reservation at Italianni's for 12 something [due to his prediction of me being late]. We decided go there slightly earlier than our reservation time. The waitress gave us a booth seat which was quite comfortable. Decided to share pizza and pasta yet again. Mark the brave ordered a bottle of red wine [which he drank by himself]...the result was a very tipsy Mark. That was quite a sight to see..him with the so-called glow from the wine. Only 2 slices of pizza were left [which I had to take home]. He even tried to make me drink. He’s planning to have his birthday party there; can’t wait for it. I’ll make sure he’ll order two bottles this time…but only for himself.



The movie was at 2.50 pm so we had plenty of time to walk around. Mark actually had to hold my hand while walking...see, where drinking gets you. Mark bought a wine bottle opener at Parkson U. We also headed for Tower Records to check out [over-priced] cds. Throughout the day, Mark made comments about how he loved the color pink [I was wearing pink that day]. We sat down on a bench [while he was busy fiddling with my pashmina, commenting how soft it is] and talked about stuff like the food at Dome, to our parents expectation of our marriage age. He was still tipsy from the wine at this point, my shoulder became his pillow for awhile [his head was too big, though]The movie [National Treasure] was a slight let-down for myself. It wasn't to the standards of Indiana Jones...the only thing I loved about the N.T was the way they had to solve the clues. Other than that, nothing much.



By the time the movie was over, I had another event to go to. Mark asked if I could give him a lift to a LRT station [Mark, you don't have to ask..I'm always willing to help a friend out]. Before we left OU, we bought a copy of the Cleo magazine each.The only station on my way to Shah Alam was Kelana Jaya. So that's where I dropped him off. Before he left, he gave me a big bear hug [which I felt was really nice].After that, I called home to check if I still had to go to my aunt's house [which mum said it was fine if I didn't attend] so I headed straight home coz I was really tired. The rest of Sunday was pretty much a blur for me except I lost my temper at the two brats for throwing their soccer balls at me.



As for today, I’m still down with the flu. Aqif made me buy junk food for him. Brother is on leave to make his IC and I’m looking forward to start reading Cleo.

Surprisingly, I'm still awake. Just got off the phone with Em. Talked about "that girl" again. I don't see the point of being nice to a person who's obviously out to make your life miserable. That's the problem with Em; she's just too damn nice. As for me, once a person has crossed the boundaries of my friendship too often, I'll never forgive the person for whatever crap that the person pulls on me. Thank god I know how to select my friends better nowadays.



I just have this feeling that something big is going to happen soon. Not sure what it is though. My family problems has got from bad to worse. Words like "court", "lawsuit" and "lawyers" keeps coming out nowadays; I hope nothing happens. I don't see the point of argument between the rest of the family against my grand-dad/aunt. Adults think everything can be work out through courts; sigh..if only people can get along with one another without any emotional baggage.



On the phone now with my cousin, D. D's having problems with Aunt J [her mum] AGAIN. This time is [yet again] about D's guy. D is now dating this guy from her workplace in Langkawi. I guess they're madly in love. The only problem is that Aunt J thinks her darling daughter deserves better. Why the hate towards the guy? Well, the guy is from a poor family and only has a diploma. Come on, doesn't mean a diploma can't get you anywhere. I know a few guys who are now very much well-off with only a diploma qualifications. D asked for my advice.



Well, my advice is just go for it. A person's status in life shouldn't be the basis of a relationship; a poor person could be rich the next day; one's future is never certain [only God knows our fate in life]. I don't know if I'm giving her the right advice since I'm very into the idea of "Nothing in life should stand in the way of love". Yet again, I don't want my cousin to go against my aunt but if it was my choice, I would totally choose my guy........I even asked my dad's opinion about it. To my surprise, he shares the same opinion as me, he's even willing to talk to my aunt about it [he said that maybe he can change his sister's mindset on the guy]. Proud of my dad now. I believe parents should control their child's life to a certain extent; I don't mind if there's a curfew for me or whether I need to call home if I'm not coming home for a night out on the town...one thing [among others] that I hate is restrictions on who I can/can't see [thank god, my parents don't have this]. I had this talk once with mum before; she said no matter who I choose as friends or bfs in the future, she won't object to my choices unless she knows for sure that person is no good.



Overall, I've learnt that you can't get love unless you're willingly to give and take. Wish you all the best, D. I'll support you no matter what.