Again...

Again..again....again....

I managed to avoid it.

God, please keep my faith strong. I don't want to do the same mistakes.

Avatar? Yes No?

I'm still thinking whether to catch the Avatar movie next week. Should I? Shouldn't I?

I want to see it coz my previous employer made a game out of it....Interested to see how it translate onto the big screen and mobile phone....

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

ORIANTHI - According To You lyrics

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you
I’m difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I’m a mess in a dress,
can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

According to you
I’m boring,
I’m moody,
you can’t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me dizz-ay

According to me
you’re stupid,
you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right

Remember Me Trailer

Looking forward for this movie:

Remember Me Video by Trailer Park - MySpace Video

I think its from a book that I've once read.

Go away..far far far

That's my best advice to that girl. I know I was all friendly before but I'm sick of having drama. As long as you have ties with Mr Khalil, I refuse to have any connections with you. Why?

Well, you don't like him (less than how I hate him, I guess) but yet, you take him in like your bosom buddy. I'm not a hypocrite or orang yang bermuka-muka...kalau aku dah tak suka, memang aku cut semua connections. Wait, bukan aku tidak suka...aku tidak RESPECT. Yes, aku dah tidak respect lelaki macam itu. Dulu maybe aku boleh berkawan dengan dia tapi setelah the crap and bullshit (which goes on till now...), I think better I leave him as a past memory....

Since you and him are so buddies now, biarlah aku dengan dunia aku, kawan-kawan aku, family aku. Mereka dah cukup untuk aku bernafas. Mereka banyak menolong aku and they know what bullshit/lies that the idiot is feeding you.

I don't care ok...Tuhan Lebih Mengetahui. So go ahead Mr Khalil...continue your drama and lies....I was there that day but only to see how dramatic you can be...and yes, a coward is a coward.

Enough said.

Allergies and some bad luck

Last week was the big car wreck.

Now it's my allergies. A moment ago, i spilled curry on my pants...

WHAT ELSE?

From Cameron to KLCC

Photos are not in sequence. Yes, I can be slightly crazy when I'm with the gediks....

Syukur...

Blessed...

For all I have. And all I let go.
Yesterday was proof that I've moved on. I quickly smsed Mr LDR after the whole confrontation. He listened with no judgements. He's happy that I'm happy.

Next step: changing my mobile number YET AGAIN..this time it's safe. Mr LDR wants the new number first. U got it baby.....

Ahli Fiqir - Derita Merindu

L
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan
Kau yang tak percaya? bagaimana nak bahagia

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

L
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

P
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

L
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan?
Aku masih terkilan

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

L
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

P
Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

LDR

LDR...

Am I in one? I would call it that. Hmm, I'm glad I chosen this road.

Long distance relationship...pure bliss for me now.

Amin..doakan yang terbaik

Work...Home...Work..Friend...

That's my life now. Work work work...

I'm tired. I want to go on holiday. I want the problems to disappear.

I want the prince to be here instead of there...

U've been blocked

Finally I got the chance to block him...

Ahh...the silence...

Photos update :)

Cik Nisa, my niece on my bed. I babysit during the evenings. Well, I try to babysit...

My new hairdo. Like or Dislike?

Ayat-ayat suci...

Hmm, I need to calm down after the previous blog. Lucky I was listening to the "beautiful words". Syukur :)

Annoyed

I was happy during lunch. The guys said they never knew how annoying I can be. Yes I can be very very annoying. In a good way. We came back to office. I switched on my PC, saw that someone left me an IM.

It was the great MR KAY.

The very presence of his existence annoys me.

"Kau tidak puas annoy aku ke"

Even though, it was just to pass me a website URL. But I'm at the point of no return. I hate you and everything to do with you.

Leave me alone.

And stop saying I was the bitch. I can very much say what you did to me and my family. The debts might go away someday. But the dosa will never be gone.

Broken Friendship

Why does someone ruin a friendship by hitting on a friend?
For a one night situation. It wasn't worth it.

I was the "friend" being hit on. The situation happened awhile back. I finally thought I should talk about it since it's been playing in my mind for awhile now. It hurts me to have to let go of a friend. He went beyond the usual flirting ways; no one even made a play like that on me before. Hmm....it makes me sad.

I actually shed a tear earlier...

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Weight issues...NOT

Oh god, when is lunch!! I’m so freaking hungry.

My weekends is now limited to raya activities for now. I’m losing weight instead of gaining. I have heard afew comments about my weight; they want me to put on. Why? Well, I’m now thinner than my usual self.

I usually skip breakfast, have lunch (rice or bread), dinner (rice). That’s about it. I do eat a lot; just the stress keeps it off. Damn you stress!!

Kelly Clarkson (Already Gone)

Been putting this song on the loop:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

Find me this guy....

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her..." -Unknown

Crying till your eyes pops out...

I spent last night pouring my eyes out. All my stress is gone now.

My strength/endurance meter is now refreshed. I know it was my “gatal” reason to be in that situation. I guess I was comfortable in a very familiar situation/person.
This time it was me who cut the ties. Why? Coz I know I’m better and stronger without “it”. My friends must be annoyed and sick to see me this way but I need to heal and let go on my own terms. So please bear with me.

I really miss my friends; I think of you guys all the time but my situation doesn’t allow me to go out often. My apologies for being ignorant.

Last words: thank you for the sorrows as it has made me stronger. Thank you for the tears that made me see clearer. Thank you for the happy moments as I realized it was me that made me happy. Cheers to that.

Selamat Hari Raya 09

Selamat hari raya to everyone. Maaf zahir & batin.

Please forgive me for all the wrongs that I caused, directly and indirectly.
May we find peace before the year ends.

May all of us find happiness even in the simplest form of it.
May I forgive and forget.
May I finally let go.
May I stop crying during times of hardship.
May U changed finally with or without me by your side.

Finally may I let myself smile for all times.

Grateful and more....

I’ve been meaning to blog but work and tiredness got in the way.

It’s amazing how a week passes you by so quickly nowadays. Tomorrow is another Friday. This Saturday is my lepak day with Zura. She’s been listening to my whines and joys for so long now; one of my best friends. Love you to bits babe!
Planning to catch a movie and then lunch. We need serious bonding/gossiping time. Yes, I know that I chat with her almost everyday on YM but it’s different plus the girl is getting hitched soon.

The time when I was engaged, she was complaining that she has no one. Now I’m single and she’s engaged, so now it’s my turn to bitch ok!

Sunday is supposed to be for family only. So I doubt I’ll be going out. Actually it’s the day for me to sleep in, have tons of food and disturb the little ones at home.

Other than work, everything is back in order except some smses/calles from him. Thank you Allah for not making my heart skipped a beat when I “see” his name on my cellphone screen and when I hear his voice on the phone. I’m finally moving on. Thank you for bringing friends into my life and blessing me with a wonderful family. Lastly, thank you for bringing “options” to me; I don’t know what or who is best for me but knowing that I’m not crying inside and outside anymore is something I’m grateful for. Amin

Oh yes, I saw that VonVon has been on the Skytrex. Something I should do too….hmmmm

Getting to know meeee.....

The RULES:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italic the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.

The LIST to Bold/Italic/Just-let-it-be:
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of magazines.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. - too much actually
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. - been more sane lately
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have (more) children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment
I'm obsessed with guys (on TV).
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Baju raya....

I was to blog on Monday but work has been hectic lately.

New services to launch, new ideas to ponder on…hmm but its all good.

Last weekend was quite productive.

Studied for the test.

Went to the tailor’’s house to get my measurements for my baju kurung. Can’t wait to see it. It's white with pink patterns. I'm going to be very girly for Raya this year.

Hopefully it will turn out great and fit me nicely. Right now, I’m so tried, body is aching.

Could be the period is coming…..sigh.

1 Month

I've survived one month of finanical torture... :)

Today salary is out but my stupid ATM card is damaged or R*HB said "sorry system down, unable to check what's wrong with you card". URGH, damn your systems! I waited for 30 minutes to get my money manually. It was a pain as i had to rushed back to the office. Luckily I told my head that I would be late after lunch.

Mondays are usually filled with reports, stats, figures...all my least favorite things to do.

Thank god for EXCEL and the database system....

Happy 25th....

Yesterday was my birthday. 25 years old (young, I mean).

Thank you for the birthday wishes via FB, text and calls. Appreciate it very much. The day was pretty low-key, no one at work knew about it since I’m new there. My family said their usual wishes eary morning. At the stroke of midnight, the smses and calls started pouring it. I however was already sleeping by that time. I never expected anything for this year, so no major disappointments here 

Other than my birthday, work has been good. Learning the ropes. Hoping to be hitting targets..or trying to. Life is back on track, no more migraines (actually getting some due to my flu/fever), room is super-clean and I’m happy. Cheers to the good life….

[edited : 29 July 09 – 4:57pm]

I’ve imported my old blog entries to this blog. Why? I’m not ashamed of my past…..I did nothing wrong.

It was a guy who did me wrong plenty of times. So, putting on a brave face and moving on with my life as normal
To my friends who didn’t know, yes I was indeed engaged for a brief period. I broke it off due to several infidelities
(Simple English: he two-timed me more than once).

But I’m happier now. So cheers everyone

[/edit]

To Have/To Do List Update

I’ve decided to update my to-do/have list again:

1. Do great in this new position. Still probation….
2. Hit target every month/quarter
3. Get some new working clothes..I think one outfit per month….
4. Get a new phone. Staying true to SE… 
5. Go travel with my girlfriends. I’ve learnt my lesson about this. Long story here.
6. Stable payment to clear of my debts. On-going process here. Wish me luck!
7. Must visit spa again. I miss Sembunyi Spa.
8. Get to know more friends. Why? I really want to push myself to be less shy.

Surprisingly I can only think of 8.
Yes, I have lots of thing to be grateful for. But wait.

9. Ignore stupid people particularly one guy. Must avoid at all cost.
10. Double entry here ===> AVOID HIM

100% Melayu ok....

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
# orang-orang yang saya tak nak jumpa

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
# Rihanna's Hatin'on the Club

3. Mungkin saya patut:
# menjadi lebih aktif dalam sukan; berenang seperti dulu...

4. Saya suka :
# berjalan-jalan, melancong dan berjumpa dengan kawan

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
# semua yang saya selalu ingati walaupun saya tak hubungi mereka tetapi mereka adalah "batu asas" saya selain keluargaku

6.Saya tak paham :
# Kenapa ada lelaki (perempuan) yang suka tipu dan suka main kayu tiga/empat/xxxx!

7.Saya kehilangan :
# masa selama 2 tahun lebih kerana "si dia"

8.Ramai yang berkata :
# saya ini nampak kuat tetapi lembut sebenarnya..ya ke?

9.Makna nama saya :
# tak ada maknanya

10.Cinta itu adalah :
# risiko yang tinggi tetapi indah diambil...

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
# teringatkan saya

12.Saya akan cuba :
# Mengurangkan sikap pemalas dan pemarah

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
# "saya lebih suka mengetahui benda buruk dari awak, daripada ketahuinya dari orang lain atau saya tahu dengan sendiri"

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
# Nokia biasa aja

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
# Saya akan baring sambil memikirkan apa nak buat

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
# Ada orang yang suka menipu

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
# tempat untuk berkawan dan lepaskan stres

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
# Kucing saya

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
# semasa di universiti...peringkat kebebasan!

20.Hari ini :
# saya sakit perut sangat tapi gembira dengan kehidupan saya

21.Malam ini saya akan :
# tengok TV sambil bermain dengan si comel-comel di rumah..my "babies"

22.Esok pula saya akan :
# ke tempat kerja

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
# kehidupan yang bahagia dan tanpa stres

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
# saya sedang meletak krim muka

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
# membeli-belah, saya kan perempuan

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
# dua-dua ok

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
# bilik yang gelap untuk tidur.

28.Makanan segera adalah :
# kegemaran saya.

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
# tolong jangan hubungi saya lagi....

Sentence of the day

"Each of us wants opportunity, respect, friendship, and understanding." from 1Malaysia website...

...good words...

Being Aware

Aware of what...aware of one's surroundings.

What’s with the sudden awareness? Well, I have an exam this coming august which I need to prepare myself. So studying some infos on Malaysia, its current issue, etc.

Currently reading on the concept of 1Malaysia. Unity and so on amongst Malaysians..its a good plan but how many of us actually go out of our way to speak to people?
I mean not from one’s own race but from another race. I know back in school, I was considered a snob by certain Malay students coz I had others as friends. Why? It won’t kill you to speak English or whatever. I’m glad I was brought up to be what I am today; I’m open-minded to a certain extent, of course.

How’s the day so far? Its good; chit-chat with colleagues, blogging, ym-ing with Zura..life’s good. No complains.

BTW, I’m happier now. I sleep better now too…good riddance once again. Please pray that he doesn’t come back into my life again. I can only take so much…my “cup” is full..without his crap.

ZEE AVI - I Am Me Once More lyrics

No, I really don't think so
That you think I'd be incapable of being on my own
No, I really don't think so
That I would for a second let you back in through my door

I have spent many a nights
Even when you are by my side
I shed tears I couldn't dry
I shed tears I couldn't dry

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more

You would turn your head the other way
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say
You assume that I needed you
But you didn't realize that I needed no one but myself
I needed no one but myself

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more

That could only mean I am me, once more
That could only mean I am me, once more

SHA: Yes, I am me once more.

Starting again

Hello blog, it's been awhile since my last entry.

Why the absence? Needed time to experience life (real life) and I had to really find "me" again. I think I have. I know that I am much stronger now; thank you for being a jerk again and thank you for giving me the chance to get rid of you completely.

Finally, I am with a position at a new place.

(Updated) My list of My Top Ten

1. Travel more. Next trip is to Australia (to see cousin, maybe)
   
2. Work smart,
3. Get an ipod or iphone
   
4. Buy that Chanel bag I want for ages – see pic below

5. Go shopping for skirts, dresses, shoes
   
6. a regular mobile phone
   
7. To maintain weight
   
8. Take family out more
   
9. Cabinets for room
10. get enough rest

Why 6 and3 is almost the same? Well, I can't decide whether to buy an iphone or a regular one? I need a good one for work; to test the games and etc....hmmm

Some pics and words....

Finally I have some time to blog. I'm all alone in the office right now; so why not take the time to blog.

My Phuket trip. It was awesome as I got to hang out with the colleagues. I'll let the photos speak for itself:

The girls of Gxxxxx APAC

Having dinner

I just love this building

On the cruise!

Me cooking...LOL

Phuket on My Mind.....

Finally 5 more days before I hit the beach. Can't wait.

I need to

1. get thai baht
2. get packing
3. buy sun block lotion/batteries/womenly kit
   
4. email technical team about important project

I think that's about it. Happy happy happy.

Oh yes, I met up with another person the other day. Weird how your past keeps popping up. I haven't seen him for like 7 years maybe.....

My Spidey Sense is Telling.......

It's been awhile since I blogged here.

I've been busy with work. More projects, more deadlines and more stress.

Good thing is I got my bonus this month, and I'm going to Phuket for a company retreat. Looking forward to meet the others. And I also need time away from everything.

Speaking of that, I've been having strange feelings like before again. I think I am right again but I'm not sure of it now. Should I go on with it? Can someone tell me what to do......

Quite confusing situation. Thank god for friends....

Anyone wants this?